adeyyy id0p

kenapa sy kena buat double entri?

adakah kerana sy memang men yukai benda2 yg berbentuk kan tulisan?
ehem*al maklum la..sy kan mmg genius.XDD*

tp

TOLONG LA, time skola dulu pantang nampak tulisan

ABC tuh pun da cukup menyakit kan jiwa dan raga,XDD

belum campur lagi dgn camne sy akan tertido time exam..
nampak je ayat panjang2 camtuh, confirm tido.

mata xdapat dibuka

kekwan.

ini dipanggel sindrom mengambil exam.

kertas exam tuh sgt la seksa.

bet0l sy xtipu.

hanya sebab sy tak0t sy akan tertid0 pas nampak kertas tuh sy terpaksa bawa mp3 everytime ade exam.

baru la xtertido.

best taw, leh gak men2 bang pale, cikgu mmg xkan pasan. yela..
dy peduli pe kan kan?

cikgu tuh mati2 ingat sy nga cari ilham utk jwb paper tuh..rupe2 ny ade patrick disbalik nye.


sib0k mendgr lagu and tgh pecah kan pale.dgn memikir

lirik lagu nie..camne eh??mcm penah ku dgr je..tp di mane ya?

itu la sy..yg smmgnye nampak terlalu baek.

cikgu, maaf kan la anak murid yg durhaka nie...


sy xtiru pun cikgu, TP kat meja tuh kan cam AJAIB taw..

tibe2 leh lak muncul answer2 kat sane.

or ketas2 yg melayang dari satu sudut ke sudut len.

sy BETUL xmeniru.


neway, entri nie buat sy terpk..

sy mmg sgt2 geram dgn budak tuh

sgt2

buat sy rase yg sy mmg xdpat la kwn ngan bebudak.adeyy

perlu ka anda buat sy rase sebegini rupa??


pape la, kalau awk mmg rasa bahagia dgn buat sy.

sy perfectly xkisah.


*wut a lie*

sy da xnak buka yahoo mail sy, gile byk mail yg xterbuka.

dah la sy xdpt cari mail lame2.

adeyy,payah

tuh la ain, xsetia tol. suke ngan hotmail j, yg yahoo wat dunno lak.

ish ishh ishhhh.


dah la.malas lak nak komen bebyk.

out

im still ain w0key?

i wanna post about this girl whom i recently know,

even if i deny thousand of times pUN, i realize i am someone who over-sensitive,

you can blame the hormone,thank you.

in some weird way, i found myself opening my ol'diaries.

and then i had this de javu kinda thingy when i kept staring at it.


pheww.wut a memories.

i love my LIFE.

yesh I DO.

ahaxxx


who say if i didnt love means i will DIE??

hahaha

i got soo many things to do and many people to LOVE.,

come come let me LOVE you

guarantee one, sure best if i love you.XDDD


and i caught myself laughing when i remember SOMEONE Say im so not very bright gurl.


Okie

thats so not true..


im AIN wokey.


because i am AIN.

then only im weird this way, and yes i have dual personality, maybe MORE?lol lol lol

hahahah

self centered bastard,XD

omigosh, i so loving retro

the other day, i went out with jia, she STOLE the tshirt i HAD my eye ON.

music is my SOUL.

damn la euu

few days at home, felt like i should blog more, but since i realize i can do better than sleeping at 3am and then wake up at 2pm the next day really not helping.

and im eating more than i should.

ini kah yang di nama kan sebagai depression tahap cipan?

adeyy.


okies, i never should do this.


damn boring la.

staring at television and drooling over seung ri who look damn hot on that tuxedo.

or fantasizing on how my next fanfic should sound like


too much of smut?

or too much of angst?

maybe a sweet teen love story?


none of this help on my so-called depression.


wait, i should stare at HIM and yes HIM, god, you are sooo..XXXXX

hahaha


;punish me please, i am so not a GOOD GIRL. WTF:


this time around, i do wish i can do something more touching thing?

living not about making yourself alone happy but doesnt it sound better,
if we can share every little thing we do with anyone and everyone?

love meant to be share, and sharing is caring.

right?

happy chinese new year

happy CHINESE YEAR.


^^

may prosperity surround you through out the year.
may happiness walks in every single day in your life.

and may god bless all of you despite which religion we are.

this year will be awesome and great. please look forward for the great thing that about to happen in year 2009`

and appreciate to have all the blessed people in your life.

and our land still in peace.


xoxo
ain

just like being shot

credit goes to wondersmurf.

총 맞은 것처럼 정신이 너무 없어
chong majun kotcheorom jeongshinee neomu obshi
웃음만 나와서 그냥 웃었어 그냥 웃었어 그냥
ooseumman nawaseo keunyang ooseoseo keunyang ooseosseo keunyang

허탈하게 웃으며 하나만 묻자 했어
heotalhakeh oosumyeo hanaman moodja haesseo
우리 왜 헤어져 어떻게 헤어져 어떻게 헤어져
uri wae hyeohjyeo oddeokeh hyeohjyeo oddeokeh hyeohjyeo
어떻게
oddeokeh

구멍난 가슴에 우리 추억이 흘러 넘쳐
goomongnan gaseumeh uri chookee heulleo nomchyeo
잡아보려 해도 가슴을 막아도
jababoryeo haedo gaseumuel magado
손가락 사이로 빠져나가
sonkarak sa eero bbajyeonaka

심장이 멈춰도 이렇게 아플 것 같진 않아
shimjangee meomchyeodo eereoke ahpuel got gatjin anha
어떻게 좀 해줘 날 좀 치료해줘
oddeokeh jom haejyeo nal jom chiryohaejyo
이러다 내 가슴 다 망가져
eeroda nae gaseum da manggachyeo
구멍난 가슴이
goomongnan gaseumee

어느새 눈물이 나도 모르게 흘러
oneusae noonmoori nado moreugeh heulleo
이러기 싫은데 정말 싫은데 정말 싫은데 정말
eerogi shireunde jeongmal shireunde jeongmal shireunde jeongmal

일어서는 널 따라 무작정 쫓아 갔어
irosoneun neol ddara moojakjeong chocha kasseo
도망치듯 걷는 너의 뒤에서 너의 뒤에서
domangchideut kotnun noeui dwiyeseo noeui dwiyeseo
소리쳤어
sorichyeosseo
구멍난 가슴에 우리 추억이 흘러 넘쳐
goomongnan gaseume uri chookee heulleo nom chyeo
잡아보려 해도 가슴을 막아도
jababoryeo haedo gaseumeul magado
손가락 사이로 빠져나가
songarak saeero bbajyeonaga
심장이 멈춰도 이렇게 아플 것 같진 않아
shimjangee momchyeodo eereoke ahpeul kot gatjin anha
어떻게 좀 해줘 날 좀 치료해줘
oddeokeh jeom haejyeo nal jeom chiryeohaejyeo
이러다 내 가슴 다 망가져
eeroda nae gaseum da mangkachyeo
총 맞은 것처럼 정말 가슴이 너무 아파
chong majeun kotchoreom jeongmal kaseumee neomu ahpa
이렇게 아픈데 이렇게 아픈데
eereoke ahpuende eereoke ahpuende
살 수가 있다는 게 이상해
sal sooga eetdanun geh eesanghae

어떻게 너를 잊어 내가 그런 건 나는 몰라 몰라
oddeokeh noreul eejeo naega keuron keot naneun meolla meolla
가슴이 뻥뚫려 채울 수 없어서
kaseumee bbong ddeuryeo chaeool soo obseoseo
죽을 만큼 아프기만 해
jooguel malgeum ahpuegiman hae
총 맞은 것처럼
chong majeun kotchoreom

credits: lovecubedlee

TRANSLATION

Like being hit by a gun
I really don’t have any mentality
Because only laughter comes out
I just smiled
I just smiled
I just…

While smiling hopelessly, I asked for only one
Why did we break up
How could we break up
How could we break up
How…

** CHORUS
In my punctured heart, our memories flow … they over flow
Even though I’m trying to hold on, even though I block off my heart
They slip through my fingers

Even though my heart is cold, it doesn’t seem like it hurts
How can you do that? Please heal me.
At this rate, my heart will break completely
My punctured heart
**

Already, my tears flow without me knowing
I hate being like this but…
I really hate it but…
I really…

You stand up and I follow
Aimlessly I followed
You’re running away, from behind you
From behind you
I cried out

** CHORUS

Like being hit by a gun, really
My heart hurts a lot
Although I hurt like this
Although I hurt like this
It’s weird how I can live

How can I forget you?
I don’t know how to do that, I don’t know
My heart is pierced
It can’t be full
It hurts as much as death
Like being hit by a gun

credits: CHARM* at soompi (:

and i took this from qeagrumpygirl. credit goes to her.XD thanks heaven.


`in some weird way, not that weird actually. i found myself get very addicted to this song.

it just makes me think how hurt a person could be at one time.
and the process of getting through it. its not easy as people thought it would be.

sometimes you just wish you were dead. and just dead.
and sometimes you wonder why everything happen to you.

it should be HAPPILY EVER AFTER right?
then, why it become happily NEVER after?

you wake up everyday like usual but still, you were walking like a zombie.

feel so stupid.

but, things just happen that way, and you realize you are not in the control anymore.

blind.

what you felt was just hurt. and it hurt so badly that it left a deep scar in your heart.

but this is how a break up should be.

hurt is part of it.

time will healed you.

this is story of a girl.

who the hell is JIA.

nur najiha ahmad.

this gurl in tudung, this gurl who looks so nice and damn blur most of the time.

she's not fairly ODD princess, she's not the vietnam maid, and no, she's not the pelarian dr kem.

she just my best friend who been together with me for 4 years in counting.

we cried.

we laugh.

we fight.

we pull each other hair.

we shop.

we whore.

we even turn horny.

yes, we have all the qualities that qualified us to become world most IDIOTIC NOT MAKING ANY SENSE BEST FRIEND.

even so, we love each other. and we still spend most of our time together.

it was on year 2005 when i first knew her, she was NEW KID on school. wandering around the school without bringing money to pay for our school club, being the ever so-nice me. *ehem*

i borrowed her my money without asking much.

she took it with her and thank me.

that is how we become closer than ever.

oh well, we were not like other bestie for sure, since we mind our own freaking business most of the time.

we never been in one class or even any thing that can make us see each other often.

we just close that way.

jia, remember all those letter?
haha.

i don't remember where i last put it but damn memorible.

sweet right.

form 5 science 2, is the class where we actually reunited together with my other best friend LOW KAR YEN.

we sit in one row, and god please help the teachers who bear the noises.XDD

i still have the paper that we wrote about spooky ghost story under the ceiling that have this weird black hole which looks like the scene from 'dark water'
and it was on monday where it was all gloomy and very much raining the whole day.

we sat in circle and talk endlessly bout how this spirit from the hole above the ceiling is a girl who lost her boyfriend which were gay.

i should admit, i become so scared that i couldnt sleep that night.

damn.

and we never study hard right. wakakakka
we always....get that constant mark for our exam. haha.

and yea, we still did our best for the spm didnt we?

after that, we've work together. and remember how crazy we were?

we sing BIG BANG song while we were walking.

or how we 'climb' the escalator that was going opposite.

and how we cam-whore inside fitting room and get out like nothing happen.

we even spend most of our outing without failed in sg wang.

we done most of the crazy stuff together.


i love how many tshirt in pairing that we have.

we should buy bikini after this.hahah. right right.XDD

when i went to NS, you called me every weekend without caring how much it will cost you in the end.

and i still hate the fact that we wont be going to university together,
yes. very much.

i hate to go back to KL after you called me to say you were going to matrix in gopeng.

but of course i was happy for you, i really did.
i wanted to see you become doctor najiha, the one i proud to have and called as my ever-lasting bestie.
i love to share my life with you, and i did promise you that i will protect you no matter what happen. i kept my word.

i hope in 10 years to come, we be able to look back and laugh at how silly we were when we still teenagers.

after i come back, strangely we have connection like soul sisters that eventually your life and mine were connected.

im talking about how weirdly it was, that your college friends is my friends too.

see, we do share our life together right.

we are so close that my house already become her second home and her house always open for me.

we share our stuff and we talked like there is no tomorrow.

in my prayer i hope, we still will be friends for infinity.

i love you nur najiha.
forever.

hhaahha.

nak jd cam baek sgt je, yg penting budak nie adalah kwn baek sy.

dan kalo nak tulis sal pe yg ktorg 2 da wat mmg xkan cukup la blog nie..

oit jia, jgn bajet da la.hehe

syg ko gile2 r.

muah muahh.

sox that rox

SY memang TAKOT pd KETINGGIAN. dan roller coaster tidak terkecuali dr senarai amusing thing that i HATE yet LOVe the most.

hati sy telah berbicara;

'ya allah, pasti kan mangkuk 2 ekor yg gumbira tgk sy nie akan menyesal kerana telah membawa sy yg tersgt INNOCENT ke tempat sebegini. AMIN'

ehem.
















;iye, SY BAJET AYU DLM PICTURE INI. please dont dare to comment.
BUT but, its not like im the one who so wanting to bajet ayu wokey, but ANNE said that I am way toooooo GANAS ;the way i sit la;
AND THEN only i cover ayu like this... ehehe. she's to BLAME.

i finally ride in MERRY GO ROUND. my dream place, oh-so-love.



















mereka ber-2 la yg telah me-rosak kan sy yg terlalu baek ini.
sekian terima kasih.

















no u guys, i dont hate you guys i just dislike both of you. ahaxxx

omigosh jan sab can you believe this???

this munky on the left and crocodile on the right is MY FRIENDS. WTF. wakakakkakaka

and because i am soo nice then only i[ain] befriend with munkies and crocodiles. thank you.

yes, i am NICE.

hahaha.

BUT anne jia, thanks alot for making my day happier than going to TADIKA.

it was indeed make me giddy and my head was on cloud 9.

i am that happy and i couldn't thank you guys more than i should.

omigosh, im trying bein nice again. XDDDD

wth, eii. wut la...u think im kid from block pe? bawa g tempat kanak2.

xde keje ape?

sy telah pun berumur 18TAHUN.
wakakakaka.

neway, i had fun. dont you??

the next day ...punye next day we went to sunway. i already blog bout it and here i going to put few snap shot from our outing.

JIA ANNE KAK ATEN. THANKS FOR THE MEMORY.
hope we can go out again. *finger crossing, eyes glittering*













tlg la, BG SALAM BEFORE AMEK GAMBAR LEH X?


ish ish ish.











; KAMI SKATE. okey.bukan sy tp MEREKA dan sy DGN BANGGE NYE TELAH MENG UPAH DRIVER MERANGKAP SKATER PERIBADI. dy bernilai RM13.

SY BERJANJI SY AKAN SKATE DGN BAEK SELEPAS INI. RM13 SGT LA MAHAL.












i love this pixxx.. i wont comment more because somebody will get so hyper up IF she read this.











in memories, thank you very much for bein the precious part of my life.
thank you for being there when i need someone, thank you for cheering me up whenever i feel down.

and most of all, thank you and thank you for being my F.R.I.E.N.D.S.

i can't explain how guilty i felt toward you guys, anne and jia.

but i can explain how i feel appreciated since i know both of you.

; d rase terharu x?
hahahahhaha

okey okey seriously, you rox my sox and that sox already have HOLE on it.

thats how u guys meant to me.XDDD


the title SUX like hell,damnit.

peace out.
XOXO

jan jan, i DO UPDATE.heeee.

thank me thank me.hehe

ps: i love using BROKEN SMS BM in my blog. YAY.^___^

im goin to change my template to xtml. so no more cute nice layout for your eye view.XD