status; hiatus

i'm on HIATUS now. will be back by next week.

happy days.

today is a history.

yesterday i watched changeling, since it was based on true story, little to i know, i was so touched.

yes. i did. angelina jolie was super hot and her acting with that look in that movie seriously
CANTIK MENARIK TERTARIK KAU MEMANG D BOMB.

serious.

i love the movie, eventho i plan to watched 'the curious case of benjamin button"

KONON BAJET MACAM, I KENA WATCH BRAD PITT BEFORE ANGELINA JOLIE.
blar r ain.

friends is like wind? im not sure how to classify them into one word, but im very sure.

they are the most hurting weapon and blady war in this world.
i am blessed with those sweetfornothing kinda friend whom i heart dearly.

but i also was 'blessed' with those who will break my heart with every chance they have.

okie, i know i am someone who hard to handle and i am difficult.

but, i thought that what friends are for? we stand together and compliment each other.

like shoe and the heels?ahahah.XD i dont know if this make enough sense.

or how they connect a tooth and brush? fuuuuuhh

*tiada niat pun nak guna toothbrush sempena nama sesiapa in specific ea*

itu kan kawan?

betul tak kawan2 ku?

my heart eventually break into pieces, and i hate all of them.
im sorry,i know i am somewhat they called as pessimist?

sometime, you just need to be oh-so-grumpy before you wake up and start being happy again.
and what important was, these heartless people NEED TO GO.
yes, please leave and dont turn back.

i will regret this every now and then but i also will smile because i deserve to be happy?

friends.

valentine again, stupiacc punya valentine, ntah orang tua mana pulak tiba2 satu dunia nak sambut birthday dia. (hanya sebab ain TIADA date for hari kasih sayang* kan lebih sedap di panggil hari kasih sayang, takde makna nye sambut birthday valentine tuh. percayaa lahh*insert lagu siti.XD*)

cis.

baik korang ingat tarikh keramat ni.

25/08/2009. itu lah TARIKH yang patut DI INGAT.

;shut up ain;

okie. do you guys know who is YUNA, she is the student from UITM?

please please listen to her music, her indie kinda voice really soothing.

one of her single is "deeper conversation"
i won't be able to put her single here, but please google search it or listen to it.

i am still moody since yesterday, i hate everything that happen to me, and i hate how i have to witness my ex came online since WTF Ain.
suka hati dia la nak online ke tidak,

tapi hati still saket seyh.belom cukup parah lagi,bila tiba2 leh teringat pasal dia.

hati tak nak fikir tapi macam melayang2 pulak semua kenangan itu.
*tolong r ain...*

ciss. HIDUP AIN SANGAT KUCAR KACIR.

hidup ain telah pun di terus kan, walau susah macam mana pun,
saat penyesalan tetap ada. cuma sekarang saya belajar untuk tidak terus2 rapat dengan siapa2 atau terlalu menyalahkan diri sendiri.
bila rasa bersalah, apa2 pun yang ain buat rasa macam tak betul and tak dapat buat pun.

ain pun membawa diri masuk bilik, layan lagu jiwang,emo tahap cipan. terima kasih.

i fcuk hate it. *opss*

omigosh, i realize this entry is mixed between english and malay.

*waaa.bahasa omputehh ku...*

apa plan ain lepas nih?

study je la.

*tolong la jauh kan perasaan malas dari dalam diri ain. cheeeeeeeeeh*

erm, teaching is supposed to be fun?
i hope so.

so teaching english won't be that hard, i just need to do some research on how i going to teach them and also how i going to improve myself.

and then, i going to re-deco my room.

actually,after everything happen, eventho sometime it makes me cry but most of the time, i can laugh whenever i think about my ex.

not because my ex was too funny.

but, THIS WHOLE THINGY WITH MY EX WAS ADORABLE AND FUNNY.XD

okie, you can call me stupid,*those who know about me and my ex je la*
and for everyone who involve in this direct or indirect also make me laugh
(ada rasa macam nak tergolek2 atas katil and buat aksi macam sin chan ketawa)

serious.

well, they are part of my life. WAS.

now, buat2 macam bahagia je la.

i don't need anyone like so-called couple to make me happy.

saya sorang2 pun dah cukup bahagia.huuuuu..konon.

and jom buat orang lain bahagia.

heee. misi membahagiakan manusia.

i plan to watch at least 3 movie alone and then go trip alone outside KL.

maybe pahang? perak?

don't know yet but. i will go.

hwaiting ain!!!!


ps:ingat kan kalau buat colourful font camtuh boleh buat blog nampak KONON menarik. serious, cacat. adeyyy. sakit mata x kwn2?XDD

tajuk entry pun memang gila bodoh. nampak sangat takde kaitan pun.

19 and still young ea

if i can give today a theme. i will call it as "19 years old is still YOUNG w0key."

i didnt go for teaching for 2days,today is NURILAH ABDUL MAJID birthday. she came quite early to my house, *that if 1.00pm consider as early since i wake up one hour before that.XD*

i havent see her for ages eventho she across my house, and yes. we are close like that.LOL
we talked, actually i talked like there is no tomorrow, and i realize i am talkactive *i miss that part of me.XD*



we waited an hour for another friend of mine to fetch us. and we finally headed to jusco AU. cool shopping mall because,not only it was huge in size but also a very empty shopping mall. i felt like a V.I.P*very important person* walking around like that.
and my fav part of shopping was searching for...

please guess.

can you?

GUESS.GUESS..


ermm..im not sure if this content allowed to be shown in here...LOL
the bra section.
i fancy about it. especially those with cute pattern and so..
;w0key ain u can shut up now.thank eu;

we spend 0ur time dining at satay club.
*yay,for their classy looking restaurant, jazzy music and i-can-sleep-here kinda chair.ops.sofa.*
it was really comforting. i almost slept.huhu

3 of us were making random stupid jokes toward each other, good laugh. we miss those old time we used to share together, eventually there is 4 of us but since jia is currently at gopeng, we decided to eat her part as well.hahahahaha













*kawan2. kami bertiga sangat poyo ea?*













* jom jd pompuan ayu yg pelok tiang. mane ta0 ade jodoh ngan prince charming yg lalu pkai kete bmw ke?huhu. pasan gile.XD*

















*original plan nak cuci rambut kat air tuh..tp...tetibe sy RASE TERHARU gile tgk benda alah tuh...Da nangehh da pun..cedeyyy*











*sorry r kwn, pic terbalek r. malas nak men rotate. Tuhh KWN sy. SYG DY. jom kisshh ea.XD*















*memang xikhlas la. senyum pun cam kena paksa je..*









*sy penah dgr cite la kan, yg kalau ade org belanja mkn,makanan menjadi lebey sedap and rasa lapar akan melampau2. iye ke?*











*thankies kwn2 syg... i love u guys.forever.friends.*

we went to jusco wangsa maju to take our cake.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAR FRIEND, Allah bless you. and i still love you,yes. no matter how hypocrite you are,i accept you just the way you are.










*nurilahhh..sorry picture terbalek. ko tetap cun seyh.hahah syg bangat kat ko.*

sy mmg suke blog, so wut???

semalam,hari ini dan esok.

apa kaitan sume nih?

*sume ny hari2 yg sy terpaksa keje, uwaaaa..nak nangeh sy T____T*

selama hampir sta0n lebey sy keje, akher ny sy da sampai ke thap ke bohsan nan yg sy xdpt nak gambar kan melalui kata2.

adeyy.


sy sedar diri sy nih hanya la manusia bese, yg sering membuat kesalahan dan melukai hati org len.

dan,sy trime sume org dgn hati yg terbuka luas.

sy di tanya pd pg yg indah td, perlu ke awk blog setiap hari?

xbosan?

menarik sgt ke apa yg berlaku kat idup awk tuh??


look *huaaa.omputih ku suda kuar.XD*

hidup kan x ber asas kan luaran semata2.

awk ingat hidup ber landas kan outing? or peristiwa2 best seperti men baling2 selipar or tampar2 itu sahaja yg di kira sbagai

:WOW, HIDUP SY SGT BEST DAN MENARIK HARI INI;

camtuh?


kalo idup hanya nak pandang benda2 besar camtuh baek awk g terjun lombong and tolong jgn call 911 or 999?? for the rescue. xberbaloi betul.

*itu ka talian penyelamat kat malaysia? FAIL duduk malaysia.ADeyyy*

hidup, mcm2 yg kite boleh buat.

kalau kite nak la kan, benda cam tgk spiderman lalu tepi tingkap tuh pun dikira best ta0.

itu cara utk appreciate every finest thing in life. and stop complaining why MY LIFE COULDNT BE BETTER.

*ain, sile renung2kan ayat di atas itu ea. sgt sesuai por eu*

sy di tanya lg.

benda kecik yg camne tuh ain?

erm.

for me la kan,

sy cepat excited.
cam nga jejalan epi2 kat luar tetibe ternampak bunny lak, gile suke.

leh terlompat2 ngan wat aksi kanak2 riang yg dpt ice cream percuma.


atau,

sy nga tension pandang reflection muka sendiri kat cermin tetibe lalu lak membe syg..haaa.

trus sengih2..gumbira nak mampus

itu hidup.

expecting the little thing in life is better than expecting the biggest thing.

every big thing start from small,no?


atau time g keje, terjumpe rm1 kat jalan, waaa

;ain, sungguh lucky la.XD;

rm1 je pun, bukan ny sejuta. gitu?

tp, sy gumbira, sbb benda kecik camtuh yg wat sy eppi.

dan sy boleh je blog more bout this.


so, hanya outing secara besar besaran atau hari ini sy telah di naek kan pangkat sahaja dikira sebagai HIDUP ke??

ntah la. ini sekadar statement sy je pun.
sy rasa hidup tuh satu jalan yg pjg tp exciting.
sbb, kite xkan ta0 pe yg kite bakal tgk or jumpa. dan sy rase sgt la excited lg utk pk, maybe one day, someday

ain akan jumpa benda yg dicari2.


sy juga xske la pk sal ape yg bakal org len pk, terlalu bohsan.mcm xde hidup lak.

*another statement, ain ingat yg nih gak.*


asal kan sy eppi and asal kan sy dpt buat org eppi sy dah cukup BAHAGIA.

world need love to be better place.

kenapa sy blog?

sbb sy nak blog la mangkuk. leh x jgn byk tanya. kalo xpuas hati sgt, g la buka blog sendiri.

menyampah t0l.

ke awk jelez, sy blog byk2?huahuahuaa

w0key la. kan xsal2 sy da stat kutuk2 dy me nambah dosa je.

bukan ke ain nak buat amal skrg??

heee.

fairy tale anybody?

once upon a time in a flyaway land lives a princess with her guardian old lady,
bla bla bla.
bla bla bla
bla bla bla
and then, the prince come to the rescue, with his whitehorse and oh-so-charming look.
the prince save his princess and he took her to his castle. he take her to the ballroom..
they danced all night long,when the clock struck 12, he knee down and proposed the princess of his live and they live happily ever after..

CUT IT OFF.

this is not a fairy land to where they say. WE SHOULD HAVE HAPPILY EVER AFTER ENDING.
or how they say LOVE LAST FOREVER.

real world, real life.

*sorry, i'm bitter knowing the valentine day is actually next week*

who say guy will love the girl forever? and how they promised all the sweetnothings.

and im bet, even the girls do the same thing.
*still in bitter T___T*

like any other year, this 2009 witness me not having any partner to celebrate it.

in south korea, this is the day where the girls will confess their love by giving chocolate to their loved ones and for those who still single and ready to mingle will eat this black bean paste noodles.

*didnt i sound too obvious?*
ITS NOT LIKE I DO CARE, having anyone by yourside doesnt bring much different. *yea right.wut a lie*

i don't even have a proper person for me to confess gah~yes. i am that pathetic thank you.

i used to believe in fairytale so so much, because somehow it make me so happy.

when you believe the love trully exist, you will serenade your life for it.
*cheeewahh, like i seriously take that.*

back to the reality, when i listened to fly.fm yesterday, the morning crew show. the topic was quite interesting since they were talking about

:does women desperate to have man by theirside?;

agree?

i don't.

YOU GILA APA, DESPERATE?? TOLONG LA, WOMAN DONT NEED MAN TO MAKE THEM HAPPY, diamonds will do.XDD

wakakaka. okey thats not true.

everyone need someone, to share their life. it nothing to do with desperate but more to sharing, caring and love.

ya ka??

i used to believe that too.
all i know, need or not is individual choice, some woman can live FINE without man. but they need baby to maintain their generation, adeeyy .PEREMPUAN.

but yea, with nowadays technology we can have babies without a man. XD

so, are we that desperate, still?

BERITE terkini, AIN RINDU KAT ANNE. wut??!!!

sy blog dlm bm ea.^^

geram tol la ari nih.

pg td sy da kuar awal, malam td sy tido lmbt.

sgt xcukup tido.

pastuh

ari nih bos sy yg memang ayu itu suh sy habiskan event dy,

bayang kan perasaan sy

cukup cedey. *aksi sayu yg melampau*

tp

sy semangat nih...konon nak habis kan keje

td tuh sempat la nak g toilet kan, nak posing maut2 lak dlm tandas tuh


adek2, jgn cube this at home

gambar2 yg bermotif kan MANGKUK TANDAS DI BELAKANG, sgt la TIDAK MENARIK.

sila amik perhatian.

even, gambar pintu toilet terbuka pun sungguh tidak cun.

walaupun tuan punya gambar sudah cukup cute.

so, sile renungkan bersama2.

3
2
1
okey cut.


pastuh, da posing lebey2 walaupun sedar mangkuk tandas kat belakang tuh lebey cute dr sy, sy tetap posing gak.


koleksi peribadi.


sy pun g la balek kat opis sy yg konon vogue tp xvogue mana pun.

rasa cam nak baling sandal sy je

ahhaaa

teringat sy.

pagi td la kan, nga jalan2 rush gile nak tangkap bus nye pasal, sandal sy TERBUKA LUAS KAT area TAPAK tuh.

fuuuhh


baru nak cover comey, trus rosak image.

geram tol.

this is w0key lg.

td sy call la sorg pompuan nih, gile benggang sy kat dy.

kalo dy kat depan sy, konpem da kena baling pastuh sy ketuk2 dy..eeeeee

GERAM GILE.

org ckp elok2, jwb la balek elok2

nih tidak.


sesuke ati dy je.


its not even FUNNY okies?

duhhh

wutever la

sy arap, cita2 sy nak jd guru bahasa inggeris akan tercapai.huahuahua


mcm layak je ain nih

kalo la sy yg ajar, kesian markah diorg. turun secara mendadak.wakakkaa


tp itu bukan point utama sy,

hari valentine yg org barat sgt bangga kan tuh is around the corner *wakakka, massive turning point.*

sy xde r benci ke ape ngan hari valentine, walaupun sbnarny benda ini tidak di galak kan sgt.

itu pun kalo la ade TEMAN utk celebrate sesame kan,

leh gak tunjuk kite nih caring ke ape...

TP sy mmg benci hari valentine, terima kasih

*cheh, hanya sbb dy xde teman ny pasal. adeyy*

hari ini, anne reply msg sy.

pmpuan itu takes forever utk reply.

kuciwa je ngan dy.

harap2 impian sy utk jd guru sementara akan tercapai.

ye la, dr sy buang masa sy dok memanjang kat opis nih

da nak muntah sy tgk opis nih.

gile bohsan

xtahan.

sy buat keputusan utk mengajar je.

dolu2 tuh

bebudak jiran suke lalu depan umah..pastuh jeritt


; kakkkkk aaaiiiiinnnnn........'

walaupun rasa cam nak sepak2 je diorg ; kuat gile, lari anak kuching dgr diorg jerit2 camtuh kalo suara cam dbsk ke, siti ke leh gak trime, BUT pas tgk muke cute diorg yg punya semangat memanggel2 name sy...terus....ter sengih sorg2

ye la..


sy kan popular di kalangan bebudak.


sy nak cari amal ngan mengajar.huahuahuaha

*nampak sgt xcukup wat amal..T___T*

haizz.


berbalek citer td.

serious r.

sy rindu kat budak tuh.


skrg nih, asek emo je.

pantang rindu seseorg.

mmg akan nangeh.


ini dipanggel ape ea?

sindrom rindu rinduan?

ke, sindrom pas break up trus frust menonggeng xdapat trime kenyataan therefore, sesape yg di ingat and konon di rindu rindu nye AKAN trus nangeh? camtuh ka??


blah r ain.


sy da malas nih..event pun da nak siap.

sy xske la...adeeyy

kakak yvonne, nak sy bantu ke buat event?
hahahaha

sy lebey ceria di AMCHAM, thank eu.


k la. tuh je.

tomboy or pengkid?

Tuesday, December 09, 2008

PENGKID ... WOMEN RIGHTS?

you post this entry a long time ago, but i come across it today as i was google searching for 'pengkid'.

im not sure if it related to my review on them,but i would love to discuss it with you.

that if you allowed me to.

i come from all girl school,to which i was surrounded by tons and tons of girls and you wont find a sight of boys.XD

when i first step in, (i come from co-ed school before) i didnt really felt anything bout the girls, as we are teenagers in growing hormone still changing, some of it trying too hard to impress other.
which how, i think this all started.

some student thought that they look so cool by being pengkid or tomboy.

and they get more attention than anyone else, as they were refered as POPULAR in school.

*noted, i didnt go from the view since they small*

in my school, when you are TOMBOY or PENGKID, student look up to you and trying to be as close as they can with that person.
and you will often see the sight of a girl passing gift or secret admiring notes to the pengkid.

they giggle and almost faint if the pengkid reply back or even smile back at them.
[seriously, thats how crazy they can be when they so much into the pengkid]

[a/n:* i had some goood time doing this.hahaha*]

you will be declared as popular as well, if you are related to the pengkid.
may you are her GF or PET SISTER.

LOL.

in my case, i close with most of the girls, regardless how tomboyish they may look or how boy-ish they may seem to be,

*sorry for my grammar mistake,*

since, for me. we are all friends. and more important, we are human and girls.

when i was in form one, i was close with this tomboy who i later on realize. she was doin all those boyish act because she wanted to protect herself from getting bullied.
and she did cost alot of problem especially fighting in school.

im not sure if i should sympathize or console her to be girl back since, my heart beating fast whenever she come close.

sometimes, i have the heart to tell her off,but most of the times, i thought she look fine bein herself which is tomboy-ish. she look so cool that people are jealous that i close with her, and yes. i love the attention at that time.

i realize that when you are in all girl school and lack of boys for eye-sight view, eventually you will get attracted by the same sex.

especially those who act like boys.

you will start wondering if and only they were boys.*gasp*

they were oh-so-perfect. look at those stylist jeans or how they do their hair.

i shall admit, that was the best part when you are in all girl school, those view are trully eye-sight.hahaha

i did a survey about 3-4 years ago, and i found out. each student will at least have ONE FEMALE CRUSH on a normal looking GIRL or THE PENGKID/TOMBOY.

im not sure the main reason behind this, i tend to kept a distant from people judging me all lesbian even if the student do not mind bout this issue, the teacher thought it different way.

it was a sensitive issue for someone like me. and i guess, im the only ONE who feeling like that?XD

yes,i did.

i mean, in my second year, which was form 2.

there is such rules as 'YOU CAN'T HOLD HAND WITH SAME SEX.'

and you can hear all those mocking like ' no way, she is my BFF.' or ' GILA APA cikgu ni?'

yes, they might not aware of the things they might cost by doing this.
teenagers tend to BREAK THE RULES. when you say you cant do this, thats when they get so hyper up and will go against it. the hormone, thank you.

things either turn bad as it sound or things will get normal. to which i believe,even I get a bit aroused by this issue.

i had a secret crush to a person for one whole year, same class with me.
i didn't do anything crazy of course, i just will stalk her every now and then.XDD hahaha

but yea, thing just passby like that, and i get to know more about this issue in my school.
and i swear, people will act normal like this is sooo NORMAL.

in my third year, i become closer with few girl who appear to be boy-ish but very much girl-ish inside.

and with all the peer pressure i was facing at that moment, they accused me.

*finally somebody taking this issue, seriously*

with the words like. YOU ARE LESBIAN. and things goes on like that.
but what make me upset was, the person who ACCUSED me was the one who SPREAD the LESBIAN thing among the student.
the same person who get caught kissing. * and yes sir, im not kidding*

some awareness.

i felt so bad and my reputation was on dead line, i decided that i shall not befriend with that boy-ish looking girl.
and i still feel very sorry for doing that to her, must hurt her so badly.

the following year, things went okey for me until my close friend start to developed feeling toward one of the tomboy in my school. she ask me if i ever get close with any tomboy and all those piped up question.

i almost couple thou.

and they continue to have the relationship right infront of me,but i didnt take any action knowing it was indeed wrong.

again, i blame the hormone.

same year, i get a little too close with one of my classmate which apparently is a tomboy.

but we keep the relationship outside the school,as we did 'date' several time for the whole year and sometime she will wait for me at school or things like that.

if she is a he, this will sound sweet.

the same year, i got involved in many tomboy's.
i regret this part.

even some of my pet sister is boy-ish looking type girl.

which lead me to another year, my final year in school almost graduating from my high school.

this year was tough,not only because i was expecting SPM but it also the golden year of my last moment at my precious school.

*eventhou' many bad thing happen to me while i was studying in here, i still love it like it was my 2nd home,do trust me*

this year, i get many threaten letter from my friends, those who i called my dearest.
which i can't believe they wrote such letter.

one of the letter i most remember was, the one that says me bringing bad culture and influencing other on this issue, to be specific; they say im the one who make other girl to be lesbian.

seriously, i done nothing to them and i swear i didn't couple with anyone.
and yes, i might have friends who couple and change couple but who am i to PREVENT them from doing it?
i tried and keep on trying until SPM but, if one person is so much in 'love' with another, you think i really have the power to wake them up and tell them GOD. "THIS IS WRONG??"

that year bring a lot of pain in my heart,since it was my last year also become the year i hate the most and love the most.

they were pointing finger at me.

and i kept my word in silence, i do not want to speak another word.

and therefore i realize, some people are just too jealous that in that kinda school with that kinda environment, you just need that so-called attention.

i am no where to blame.

eventually when the year almost end, they crawled to me and apologize.

this issue actually quite predictable in every girl school. i over-heard my teacher complaining about how our school reputation is dying when two girls from different school start a fight over a tomboy from my our school.
this should be a great news highlight.
and most of the story remain mystery. nobody want to tackle this issue from any school,its totally humiliating.

but the reason im writing a long-than-my blog kinda email to you was, i found this issue very much interesting.
its not because im from girl school or how i got involved in this but more to, how come they want to be like this and all other unknown reason. * you dont need a specific reason to like something right.hehe*

and i do know few people who claim theirself as NOT TOMBOY but eventually, they WERE ACTING LIKE ONE.

seriously, they can lie or pretend all they want by saying how innocent and how this act may cost a humiliation to their family but in the end, they the one who did this.

i wonder why.

because, recently i found one who start everything with me and in the end she say, she is not the type.

a dual personality maybe?

only she knows the answer, and i wish i can interview her on this.XD
haha

if and only this was my assignment.XDD

anyway, i had great time alone sharing this with you.

this won't have any moral value behind but somehow, this is the journey of a girl who faced this issue. and yes, thats who i am.

haha.

thank you for reading it.

im a real person by the way.

XDD

shut up and read

hate to admit, currently i kinda into someone.

a person.

everything this person do simply attract me, when i notice almost all of it, it makes me feel so weird that i grew the liking feeling toward this person.

a person.

the same person that caught me thinking over again. its not because you look so nice, but i think i going to hate myself for saying this. BUT i think your cute way of thinking put a pulse on my hand.

a person.

god. i wish you can be more careful on your words, because both of us know, your words is a killing.


screw that, what im talking in this early wee hour.

;shut up ain;

i was LATE. again.

if its not because of the pay they giving, i swear i won't even look at this place.

i do not hate this place,but i kinda not liking the event they doing.

its sux.

i meant it. wut up with the talking and conference anyway?

IT?

yea,but whats it all about?

such a waste of time.

dont register for it.period.

and therefore i realize i am devil. of all the time.

i love MONEY, so?

you see, sometime it hit me that, im glad i have obsession over money than obsession over someone.

in either way, liking someone can put a hole in your heart.

and thats more dangerous than having a operation fulled with physco doctor with you.

i dont have any grudge toward doctor,believe me.

ever wondered how it feel to be alone always?

eventho' there is plenty of people standing behind you,but in the end all you want is only a PERSON to which you know,wont be crawling back to you?

when you look from the window, a flashback look so vividly that you almost burst into tears,but nothing comes out from it?

love is it?

or thats how a human care for another human?
even all the animal know how to take care of its own species.

and not to mention, animal do not know how to break a heart.

why people keep on breaking innocent heart?

dont they realize how hurt and pain a person could be?

im still in deep angst after what happen to me.

i blame myself, if and only i could see everything earlier.

and wish keep as wishing.

im talking this from a view of a F.R.I.E.N.D

i don't have a LOVELIFE. mind you.

and i am not interested in one.

this also doesnt make me A LESBIAN just because i refuse to start a relationship now.

even if i DID come from all GIRL school.

why does people always come out with wrong assumption only because im over-friendly with a girl.

they my BFF and FRIENDS WOKEY.

not to mention to those who missjudge me. GET A LIFE LA.

pist me off only.

anyway, i seriously hate it when a person hurt another person.

daymm.. its the FEELING okey.

stupid job, i almost sleep.
;dear ain, get another job ok, event are so history;

yes. it is that boring.

i write to iroslan as i come across his blog and the issue he was digging is INTERESTING believe me.

and i bet, what i wrote got nothing to do with the ISSUE but i did anyway.hahahaa

stupid right?

wanna peek a boo on it?

bleeding hati.

kuciwa t0l ngan s0rg pmpuan nih.


sejak sy da mule menulis dlm malay, tetibe sy rase ayat malay sy cam power gak,kan?ahax

berbalek pd cerita td..

gile kuciwa.

bukan ngan sorg dua je, tp lebey dr 2-3 org.

thap kuciwa yg melampau-lampau.

ade rase nak ter gulik2 atas tilam dan ingin meng hentak2 pale kat dinding.

tp sy buat yg sblek ny.

buka lagu rock kapak tuh, fuhhh babe. sentimental gile siot..tambah ngan rock nye...!!!

dan dgn itu, sy pun meng bang bang bang pale sy.

dasat kan?

xubah cam .....

sabar je la ngan ain nih..adeyy


kuciwa.


gile kuciwa.


knape?


sy suke kat k0rg2 sume


tp


di buat ny sy sebegini.

ape kan daya sy, sy trime je la.

and hoping everything wil be fine.

adeyy.ckp omputih g...



naseb badan kan?


dah la, kalo dpk pk, konpem sy jd gilak, pastuh emo emo emo je memanjang.

buang mase tol;

;ain,lebey baek g tlg mak kat dapur tuh,dpt gak berkat.dr dok dlm blik emo je;

pastuh xckup ngan tuh.


time nga concentrate kat work,tetibe membe syg lak online,

dy da kembali kat gf dy

ape yg sy rasE?


KURENG TOL PUNYE KWN.

bukan nak bgta0 awal2

kot2 awk xonline ke ape sta0n tuh, mmg sy xkan dpt ta0 la nih kan.


hampeh jiwa dan raga.

kuciwa again.

cedey t0l.



konon rapat la sgt?

blah r. sume bikin ayat kasi power time awal2 kwn je kot,bile da lame.

xkenal pun kot.


payah tol idup ngan teman tp mesra nih.

mesti ade je saat ati di guris and di kuciwa.

tp

kwn tetap kwn

sy syg awk sume.

syg sesgt.

skrg ain, tggu masa utk di kuciwa kan lg.


haizz

sign off.

b-o-r-i-n-g

valentine is around the corner, again.

i never should feel like im so heepy happy.

but yea. i am.omigosh. =]

isnt the world look so beautiful with love spread around the globe,?WTF.

okey scratch that. now time for real business.

you see, i found out the truth from the truth which lead me to another truth. get it?

another 5 hour before my work finish, and i hate this job.

because, for now and i mean NOW. I HATE EVENTS.

since im writing both in english and malay, thus i do not want people to think i will only write in english,when i can write in malay as well.

no,thats not the reason.

writing in malay is amusing,XDDD

okey. my brain seriously NOT FUNCTIONING..


so k.

lady on run

i want to post-but busy working my edufoireug-OUT.
damnit.

nvm. i still have my LUNCH-BREAK.

pufff

go go go ain, you can do it!!!