Tuesday, December 09, 2008
PENGKID ... WOMEN RIGHTS?
you post this entry a long time ago, but i come across it today as i was google searching for 'pengkid'.
im not sure if it related to my review on them,but i would love to discuss it with you.
that if you allowed me to.
i come from all girl school,to which i was surrounded by tons and tons of girls and you wont find a sight of boys.XD
when i first step in, (i come from co-ed school before) i didnt really felt anything bout the girls, as we are teenagers in growing hormone still changing, some of it trying too hard to impress other.
which how, i think this all started.
some student thought that they look so cool by being pengkid or tomboy.
and they get more attention than anyone else, as they were refered as POPULAR in school.
*noted, i didnt go from the view since they small*
in my school, when you are TOMBOY or PENGKID, student look up to you and trying to be as close as they can with that person.
and you will often see the sight of a girl passing gift or secret admiring notes to the pengkid.
they giggle and almost faint if the pengkid reply back or even smile back at them.
[seriously, thats how crazy they can be when they so much into the pengkid]
[a/n:* i had some goood time doing this.hahaha*]
you will be declared as popular as well, if you are related to the pengkid.
may you are her GF or PET SISTER.
LOL.
in my case, i close with most of the girls, regardless how tomboyish they may look or how boy-ish they may seem to be,
*sorry for my grammar mistake,*
since, for me. we are all friends. and more important, we are human and girls.
when i was in form one, i was close with this tomboy who i later on realize. she was doin all those boyish act because she wanted to protect herself from getting bullied.
and she did cost alot of problem especially fighting in school.
im not sure if i should sympathize or console her to be girl back since, my heart beating fast whenever she come close.
sometimes, i have the heart to tell her off,but most of the times, i thought she look fine bein herself which is tomboy-ish. she look so cool that people are jealous that i close with her, and yes. i love the attention at that time.
i realize that when you are in all girl school and lack of boys for eye-sight view, eventually you will get attracted by the same sex.
especially those who act like boys.
you will start wondering if and only they were boys.*gasp*
they were oh-so-perfect. look at those stylist jeans or how they do their hair.
i shall admit, that was the best part when you are in all girl school, those view are trully eye-sight.hahaha
i did a survey about 3-4 years ago, and i found out. each student will at least have ONE FEMALE CRUSH on a normal looking GIRL or THE PENGKID/TOMBOY.
im not sure the main reason behind this, i tend to kept a distant from people judging me all lesbian even if the student do not mind bout this issue, the teacher thought it different way.
it was a sensitive issue for someone like me. and i guess, im the only ONE who feeling like that?XD
yes,i did.
i mean, in my second year, which was form 2.
there is such rules as 'YOU CAN'T HOLD HAND WITH SAME SEX.'
and you can hear all those mocking like ' no way, she is my BFF.' or ' GILA APA cikgu ni?'
yes, they might not aware of the things they might cost by doing this.
teenagers tend to BREAK THE RULES. when you say you cant do this, thats when they get so hyper up and will go against it. the hormone, thank you.
things either turn bad as it sound or things will get normal. to which i believe,even I get a bit aroused by this issue.
i had a secret crush to a person for one whole year, same class with me.
i didn't do anything crazy of course, i just will stalk her every now and then.XDD hahaha
but yea, thing just passby like that, and i get to know more about this issue in my school.
and i swear, people will act normal like this is sooo NORMAL.
in my third year, i become closer with few girl who appear to be boy-ish but very much girl-ish inside.
and with all the peer pressure i was facing at that moment, they accused me.
*finally somebody taking this issue, seriously*
with the words like. YOU ARE LESBIAN. and things goes on like that.
but what make me upset was, the person who ACCUSED me was the one who SPREAD the LESBIAN thing among the student.
the same person who get caught kissing. * and yes sir, im not kidding*
some awareness.
i felt so bad and my reputation was on dead line, i decided that i shall not befriend with that boy-ish looking girl.
and i still feel very sorry for doing that to her, must hurt her so badly.
the following year, things went okey for me until my close friend start to developed feeling toward one of the tomboy in my school. she ask me if i ever get close with any tomboy and all those piped up question.
i almost couple thou.
and they continue to have the relationship right infront of me,but i didnt take any action knowing it was indeed wrong.
again, i blame the hormone.
same year, i get a little too close with one of my classmate which apparently is a tomboy.
but we keep the relationship outside the school,as we did 'date' several time for the whole year and sometime she will wait for me at school or things like that.
if she is a he, this will sound sweet.
the same year, i got involved in many tomboy's.
i regret this part.
even some of my pet sister is boy-ish looking type girl.
which lead me to another year, my final year in school almost graduating from my high school.
this year was tough,not only because i was expecting SPM but it also the golden year of my last moment at my precious school.
*eventhou' many bad thing happen to me while i was studying in here, i still love it like it was my 2nd home,do trust me*
this year, i get many threaten letter from my friends, those who i called my dearest.
which i can't believe they wrote such letter.
one of the letter i most remember was, the one that says me bringing bad culture and influencing other on this issue, to be specific; they say im the one who make other girl to be lesbian.
seriously, i done nothing to them and i swear i didn't couple with anyone.
and yes, i might have friends who couple and change couple but who am i to PREVENT them from doing it?
i tried and keep on trying until SPM but, if one person is so much in 'love' with another, you think i really have the power to wake them up and tell them GOD. "THIS IS WRONG??"
that year bring a lot of pain in my heart,since it was my last year also become the year i hate the most and love the most.
they were pointing finger at me.
and i kept my word in silence, i do not want to speak another word.
and therefore i realize, some people are just too jealous that in that kinda school with that kinda environment, you just need that so-called attention.
i am no where to blame.
eventually when the year almost end, they crawled to me and apologize.
this issue actually quite predictable in every girl school. i over-heard my teacher complaining about how our school reputation is dying when two girls from different school start a fight over a tomboy from my our school.
this should be a great news highlight.
and most of the story remain mystery. nobody want to tackle this issue from any school,its totally humiliating.
but the reason im writing a long-than-my blog kinda email to you was, i found this issue very much interesting.
its not because im from girl school or how i got involved in this but more to, how come they want to be like this and all other unknown reason. * you dont need a specific reason to like something right.hehe*
and i do know few people who claim theirself as NOT TOMBOY but eventually, they WERE ACTING LIKE ONE.
seriously, they can lie or pretend all they want by saying how innocent and how this act may cost a humiliation to their family but in the end, they the one who did this.
i wonder why.
because, recently i found one who start everything with me and in the end she say, she is not the type.
a dual personality maybe?
only she knows the answer, and i wish i can interview her on this.XD
haha
if and only this was my assignment.XDD
anyway, i had great time alone sharing this with you.
this won't have any moral value behind but somehow, this is the journey of a girl who faced this issue. and yes, thats who i am.
haha.
thank you for reading it.
im a real person by the way.
XDD
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