if i sober again,that will make me the biggest loser in earth and not to mention.
i already am ONE.
pretend YESH.
SOBER nope.
damn it. everything will be fine neway,
i live FINE before. infact i was DOIN great in everything.
eventhough life were never that perfect but im cool with it.
its my life neway,i dont have much to complaint.
not sure until when i gonna cries my lungs out, retarded.
*slap harder*
wake up.
lets move on to my wish list.ahasx
i wanna be happy. LOL OF CUZ I AM HAPPY.
i am freakin fine,with bunny earphone plug in my ear. YES I AM FINE.
so dont ask .no more question.nEXT
you see, i have great friends, i meet a whole new group generation of friends as well.
2008-unexpected truth the hurtful year.
recalled it back.
i was top candidates. YAY.
i started to not so into LJ-ing Kpop Meme-ing.
i got a whole bunch of new friends..
i have malay friends ehh..ahhahahahahahah. WAY2GO.ain
family exchange. i work for many new places.
and i learn that, im good in events managing.
i went to NS and heck i really did work my heart out. i gained weight after i back from NS.^^
but drop back after come back.hahaha
my birthday was awesome in 2008^^
but the things after that wasnt great.
o yea, i went to finale of so you think you can dance.
haha
i dance at the stage and met up with ying2 and wing yan.
and i am so much in love with adam that time.
he is so breath taking, that i almost apply for the job that require to meet him everyday.hahaha
but i pull myself off, damn ain, you are not easy.
hahaha
and i still go for dates actually...
i've been booked from august until december.hahaha
we plan so much ehh right. but..i didnt go for all of it.
damn lazy la.
i went for few dates....o wait. is it like too many of them??
i went to ipoh..i met my sweet heart<333
after good 4 years of bein bestiesss.finally reunited.
erm,to break it off la.
too many unexpected things happen.
so,lets close this diary and open a new one.
hwaiting ain.
you'll do better this time.. you will. so don worry and keep holding on.^^
Thursday, January 22, 2009
skating academy
btw,i didnt write bout my outing with my friends.
cool eh.
i still regret i didnt go to the party. they drink martini?LOLLLL
i'll start from what happen the night before we went to sunway ice skating.
jia was attacked by strange and sudden headache that makes me and anne stop watching TWILIGHT-freakin H.O.T VAMPPPXXX.
ps:JAN you need to watch this.XDDD
and i were saying,we stoped it and helped jia to sleep.
it takes only few fine minutes to make jia sleep.hehe
and because she sick,we in the mid. between me and anne. haha.
something wrong with us neway..
we start messagin each other`noted. the silent take place here.XP
i become so damn...how to express this?
devastated?
wrong.
donno la, but seriously i stare her to death. YOU READ MY WUT?!!!!!!!
haha.
and the drama took it action in here,sober. ishhhhhh
later, both of us didnt talk with each other.
until i get up and went beside her..so we talk a bit..actually...we talked until dawn.
damn,..and we still need to go to sunway that morning.
she such a wrecko.<3
she took candid pic of me.XD
that afternoon we went to sunway...erm. we went to pudu first to 'fetch' k.aten.
i like her. she such a...sweet heart.
we headed to sunway, i forget how to skate and i end up cuddling anne most of the time to ride on her back.hahaha
and k.aten hold my hand to make sure i didnt fall..but then jia and k.aten both want to see me fall..they want take pic.LA SGT.
i remember falling like damn hard...i hold anne back..and i lose my balance..
because i DO NOT WANT TO FALL ALONE...i push her down as well.hehe
overall, we had great time.
it was fun..really.XDD
jan u OWE me a skating lesson.heeeps.
and we come back home real LATE, i guess we have been doing this for few days in the row.
again we plan to watch twilight, jia fall asleep and..i follow her next.LOL
i promise to anne i will talk..hahaha
i didnt.SORRY.
and jia....jia...jia.......
jiaaaaaaaaaaaa...........haha.
you been there most of the times. now,lets finish this together eh.
haha
many things to do KAN.
ur FUTURE PLAN.EHEMMMM.
YOU ARE LEGALLY MARRIED TO ME.
wait,...how bout my other Bb...
i promise to marry....almost everyone.hehe.
but neway,YOU ARE MA 1ST after Ky. eh..
ntah .something like that la.
we go honeymoon at..korea this year wokey.
xoxo
cool eh.
i still regret i didnt go to the party. they drink martini?LOLLLL
i'll start from what happen the night before we went to sunway ice skating.
jia was attacked by strange and sudden headache that makes me and anne stop watching TWILIGHT-freakin H.O.T VAMPPPXXX.
ps:JAN you need to watch this.XDDD
and i were saying,we stoped it and helped jia to sleep.
it takes only few fine minutes to make jia sleep.hehe
and because she sick,we in the mid. between me and anne. haha.
something wrong with us neway..
we start messagin each other`noted. the silent take place here.XP
i become so damn...how to express this?
devastated?
wrong.
donno la, but seriously i stare her to death. YOU READ MY WUT?!!!!!!!
haha.
and the drama took it action in here,sober. ishhhhhh
later, both of us didnt talk with each other.
until i get up and went beside her..so we talk a bit..actually...we talked until dawn.
damn,..and we still need to go to sunway that morning.
she such a wrecko.<3
she took candid pic of me.XD
that afternoon we went to sunway...erm. we went to pudu first to 'fetch' k.aten.
i like her. she such a...sweet heart.
we headed to sunway, i forget how to skate and i end up cuddling anne most of the time to ride on her back.hahaha
and k.aten hold my hand to make sure i didnt fall..but then jia and k.aten both want to see me fall..they want take pic.LA SGT.
i remember falling like damn hard...i hold anne back..and i lose my balance..
because i DO NOT WANT TO FALL ALONE...i push her down as well.hehe
overall, we had great time.
it was fun..really.XDD
jan u OWE me a skating lesson.heeeps.
and we come back home real LATE, i guess we have been doing this for few days in the row.
again we plan to watch twilight, jia fall asleep and..i follow her next.LOL
i promise to anne i will talk..hahaha
i didnt.SORRY.
and jia....jia...jia.......
jiaaaaaaaaaaaa...........haha.
you been there most of the times. now,lets finish this together eh.
haha
many things to do KAN.
ur FUTURE PLAN.EHEMMMM.
YOU ARE LEGALLY MARRIED TO ME.
wait,...how bout my other Bb...
i promise to marry....almost everyone.hehe.
but neway,YOU ARE MA 1ST after Ky. eh..
ntah .something like that la.
we go honeymoon at..korea this year wokey.
xoxo
still.with.me
i guess,the way i blog here and my LJ is far different.
even the wording that i am using is opposite with the one i mention in here. XDD
im such a weirdo, its still the BLOG la ain. adeyyy.
let me peek a boo through my LJ journal and compare with the one i already write in here,
and btw, chee hoong dont complaint much bout the words i used. HAHA. you sei alien. spagetti.XDDDD
YIN LI, my freak post is long because the owner is short. ops. sort of. XP
get me?!!
hahaha
okey peek a boo time.
go back to my last year post in LJ,
Life is damn crucial
The more i try to avoid everything the more closer it seems to be.
i told this once.not being myself is the worse thing that could ever happen to me.
i bet my SOUL-MATE is laughing his head out seeing me oh-so-vulnerable.
Since i-want-to-get-over-you doesn't really work with...you-should-not-be-name.
I literally throw myself into another conclusion.
If you still treat me like im your girl.its ok.but remember this.
i stay by yourside now is only because i do not want you to change become someone else.
i do not wish to create a monster.
I hope i put myself clear here.
[i post this on sept 3rd 2008]
in memories.LOL
i guess i am more comfortable writing in LJ compare to blogspot.
the feeling there is more alive and i can pour everything out. Despite, im writing amongs the stranger. and those who reading it are around the globe yet in one term, we all have one thing in common.
MUTUAL UNDERSTANDING.
they might do not know you,but they willing to be there for you.
they try to make you happy, remember all those fanfic,smut or even angst. they write for our soul, to make us feel better.
we share everything in common,all those communities.
in conclusion, i just can't live without my Lj. its like my undead secret kept forever in there.
XDDD
So,today.
emotion
define it.
`An emotion is a mental and physiological state associated with a wide variety of feelings, thoughts, and behavior. Emotions are subjective experiences, or experienced from a individual point of view. Emotion is often associated with mood, temperament, personality, and disposition.`
credit goes to wikipedia.
i cut this off here.haha. or someone will complaint my post is damn long.
even the wording that i am using is opposite with the one i mention in here. XDD
im such a weirdo, its still the BLOG la ain. adeyyy.
let me peek a boo through my LJ journal and compare with the one i already write in here,
and btw, chee hoong dont complaint much bout the words i used. HAHA. you sei alien. spagetti.XDDDD
YIN LI, my freak post is long because the owner is short. ops. sort of. XP
get me?!!
hahaha
okey peek a boo time.
go back to my last year post in LJ,
Life is damn crucial
The more i try to avoid everything the more closer it seems to be.
i told this once.not being myself is the worse thing that could ever happen to me.
i bet my SOUL-MATE is laughing his head out seeing me oh-so-vulnerable.
Since i-want-to-get-over-you doesn't really work with...you-should-not-be-name.
I literally throw myself into another conclusion.
If you still treat me like im your girl.its ok.but remember this.
i stay by yourside now is only because i do not want you to change become someone else.
i do not wish to create a monster.
I hope i put myself clear here.
[i post this on sept 3rd 2008]
in memories.LOL
i guess i am more comfortable writing in LJ compare to blogspot.
the feeling there is more alive and i can pour everything out. Despite, im writing amongs the stranger. and those who reading it are around the globe yet in one term, we all have one thing in common.
MUTUAL UNDERSTANDING.
they might do not know you,but they willing to be there for you.
they try to make you happy, remember all those fanfic,smut or even angst. they write for our soul, to make us feel better.
we share everything in common,all those communities.
in conclusion, i just can't live without my Lj. its like my undead secret kept forever in there.
XDDD
So,today.
emotion
define it.
`An emotion is a mental and physiological state associated with a wide variety of feelings, thoughts, and behavior. Emotions are subjective experiences, or experienced from a individual point of view. Emotion is often associated with mood, temperament, personality, and disposition.`
credit goes to wikipedia.
i cut this off here.haha. or someone will complaint my post is damn long.
tag by jan.XDD
1. The rules of the game get posted at the beginning.
2. Each player answers the questions about themselves.
3. At the end of the post the player then tags 5 people and posts their names, then goes to their blogs and leaves a comment, letting them know they got tagged and to ask them to play and read your blog.
Name : farah ain. and thats all. dont try to change my name or i whack you to pieces. heee.
Sisters : three
Brothers : -
Shoe size : 4 heeps. i am small in sizeXDDD
Height : DON ASK BOUT MY HEIGHT. NEVER.AGAIN. kthxbye.
Where do you live : earth HALLO.
Favourite drinks : bug juice. YUMMy^^
Favourite breakfast : errr....im not choosey..but...large bowl of cereals, with eggs,muffin,sosej, baked bean...ginger bread with mushroom soup...will do.haha
Have you ever been on a plane : is WING consider as plane as well? it can fly,i swear it did.hehe
Swam in the ocean : is sinking on water count? hehe. i almost drown thou. i hate swimming.
Fallen asleep in school: OF CUZ who doesnt.hahah.XDD
Broken someones heart : err.maybe? but im INNOCENT w0key,didn meant it =3
Fell off your chair : DUH...XDD
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call : i end up looking pathetic la.XDD please dont try it at home.XDD
Saved e-mails : i only save LJ's and DBSK related emails.
What is your room like : like kena langgar with lorry je. Plain white.LOL
What's right beside you : table?books,bag,handphone and 2 mugs with milo in it. wut else?
What is the last thing you ate : my mom cookings. damn spicy feel like my hand all burning from the heat.ishhhh.XD
Ever had chicken pox : seriously?
Sore throat : err...if i sing too loud in bathroom yea,i will get one very often.XDD
Stitches : oho,yea. i get one when i was racing with my friends last time, hahaha.
Broken nose : i don wish for one.
Do you believe in love at first sight : can i ask you the same question back? heee.
Like picnics : yeaaa.like muchies.=3
Who was the last person you danced with : with Munkies and CroCodiles.
Last made you smile : some stupid random cute so sweet messages from my homies^^
You last yelled at : miiinnn... sorry honey.
Talk to someone you like : homies ehhh^^
Kissed anyone : perv JIA.haha
Get sick : Sometimes.
Talked to an ex : No.
Miss someone : erm...
Do you sleep with stuffed animals : does stuffed patrick boaster pillow count?? he is starfish.hehe
What's under your bed : nothing i guess?
Who do you really hate :Back-stabbers! Two faces people!!dishonest and ppl who live with intention stuck in their forehead. GET A LIFE PEOPLE.kthxbye.
What time is it now : 1.55pm
RANDOMS
Q : Is there a person who is on your mind right now : as in anyone or anyone special? or anyone as in anyone??? haha
Q : Do you have any siblings : threeee sisss
Q : Do you want children : if the father of my baby is...you know who.hahah. damn want it.hahaha
Q : Do you smile often : yesh yesh.i do.XD
Q : Do you like your hand-writing : depends on how neat it was. or.how fugly it turn when my mood swing.LOL
Q : Are your toenails painted : not yet....le.
Q : Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in : depends on with WHO i sleeping with.AHAHAHAH.XDDD
Q : What colour shirt are you wearing : blue with choco sweater.
Q : What were you doing at 7:00pm yesterday : linger around carefour.
Q : I can't wait to : GET A FREAKIN PEACE LIFE. yay.^^
Q : When did you cry last : erm......this is sensitive.LOL
Q : Are you a friendly person: DUHHHH.of cuz. havent you heard bout ME??.hahaha
Q : Do you have any pets : my herotic hamster, ni chan and miko chan.
Q : Where is the person you have feelings for right now : my heart broken la weyh.. where got peeling anymore.haizzz.
Q : Did the last person you held hands with you mean anything to you now? : u GUESS??
Q : Do you sleep with the TV on? : i don watch tv,tv watch me .
Q : What are you doing right now? : Blogging, MSN-ing,LJ-ing, and finishing FMM event.
Q : Have you ever crawled through a window? :i wont try this at my homey..never.
Q : Can you handle the truth?: It depends.
Q : Are you closer to your mother or father?: i close to my LJ ,my Mom where got time at home one la..adeyy
Q : Who was the last person you cried in front of? : sengal JIa.
Q : How many people can you say you've really loved? DBSK.HAHAHAHA.okey.
my family.my bestiesss'my friends that really close with me....
Q : Do you eat healthy? im sorry?? pls define the word health for me..haha.XDD
Q : Do you still have pictures of you & your ex? : omigosh. never.
Q : Have you ever cried because of something someone said to you? : yes. like shit. i sober one whole month. damn it.
Q : If you're having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to? : i'll blog it out, or find someone close to talk with them. or i punch anything closer to me or run one whole day OR watch StarMoON at night while listening to my mp3.
Q : Are you loud or quiet most of the time? : Follow my mood actually,usually im LOUD but i can turn QUIET when..i found the atmosphere rather ODD.
Q : Are you confident? Sometimes YES, sometimes NO.
THINGS YOU DID 10 YEARS AGO.
( 9 years old )
1. Studied in SRKJAP
2. babi one la, all forgetten.haha
3. i was insane. wait wait, i kick a boy right at his.hahahah...XDD
SNACKS I ENJOY.: i just eat wokey. don care much.
5 PLACES I HAVE LIVED IN
1. somewhere in selangor area,[damn bb to recalled it]
2. water honey.hahaha. direct translation from AIR MADU.
3.is toilet count? i always sleep inside toilet when i have to go to school last time.haha
4. now im at earth, tomorrow im goin back to sky high academy.XD
5. pahang.my CAMP NS memories^^
5 JOBS I HAVE HAD
1. Promoter at Sg wang.
2. Office work in gazallion of place
3. fully HOUSE MAID.haizzz
4. erm..being student oso count right right???
5. ...erk...bein a good motivator.hahahah.XDDD blif me. i done this before.hahaha
im not feeling like wanting to tag anyone, so just feel free to do it by yourself eh.^^
2. Each player answers the questions about themselves.
3. At the end of the post the player then tags 5 people and posts their names, then goes to their blogs and leaves a comment, letting them know they got tagged and to ask them to play and read your blog.
Name : farah ain. and thats all. dont try to change my name or i whack you to pieces. heee.
Sisters : three
Brothers : -
Shoe size : 4 heeps. i am small in sizeXDDD
Height : DON ASK BOUT MY HEIGHT. NEVER.AGAIN. kthxbye.
Where do you live : earth HALLO.
Favourite drinks : bug juice. YUMMy^^
Favourite breakfast : errr....im not choosey..but...large bowl of cereals, with eggs,muffin,sosej, baked bean...ginger bread with mushroom soup...will do.haha
Have you ever been on a plane : is WING consider as plane as well? it can fly,i swear it did.hehe
Swam in the ocean : is sinking on water count? hehe. i almost drown thou. i hate swimming.
Fallen asleep in school: OF CUZ who doesnt.hahah.XDD
Broken someones heart : err.maybe? but im INNOCENT w0key,didn meant it =3
Fell off your chair : DUH...XDD
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call : i end up looking pathetic la.XDD please dont try it at home.XDD
Saved e-mails : i only save LJ's and DBSK related emails.
What is your room like : like kena langgar with lorry je. Plain white.LOL
What's right beside you : table?books,bag,handphone and 2 mugs with milo in it. wut else?
What is the last thing you ate : my mom cookings. damn spicy feel like my hand all burning from the heat.ishhhh.XD
Ever had chicken pox : seriously?
Sore throat : err...if i sing too loud in bathroom yea,i will get one very often.XDD
Stitches : oho,yea. i get one when i was racing with my friends last time, hahaha.
Broken nose : i don wish for one.
Do you believe in love at first sight : can i ask you the same question back? heee.
Like picnics : yeaaa.like muchies.=3
Who was the last person you danced with : with Munkies and CroCodiles.
Last made you smile : some stupid random cute so sweet messages from my homies^^
You last yelled at : miiinnn... sorry honey.
Talk to someone you like : homies ehhh^^
Kissed anyone : perv JIA.haha
Get sick : Sometimes.
Talked to an ex : No.
Miss someone : erm...
Do you sleep with stuffed animals : does stuffed patrick boaster pillow count?? he is starfish.hehe
What's under your bed : nothing i guess?
Who do you really hate :Back-stabbers! Two faces people!!dishonest and ppl who live with intention stuck in their forehead. GET A LIFE PEOPLE.kthxbye.
What time is it now : 1.55pm
RANDOMS
Q : Is there a person who is on your mind right now : as in anyone or anyone special? or anyone as in anyone??? haha
Q : Do you have any siblings : threeee sisss
Q : Do you want children : if the father of my baby is...you know who.hahah. damn want it.hahaha
Q : Do you smile often : yesh yesh.i do.XD
Q : Do you like your hand-writing : depends on how neat it was. or.how fugly it turn when my mood swing.LOL
Q : Are your toenails painted : not yet....le.
Q : Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in : depends on with WHO i sleeping with.AHAHAHAH.XDDD
Q : What colour shirt are you wearing : blue with choco sweater.
Q : What were you doing at 7:00pm yesterday : linger around carefour.
Q : I can't wait to : GET A FREAKIN PEACE LIFE. yay.^^
Q : When did you cry last : erm......this is sensitive.LOL
Q : Are you a friendly person: DUHHHH.of cuz. havent you heard bout ME??.hahaha
Q : Do you have any pets : my herotic hamster, ni chan and miko chan.
Q : Where is the person you have feelings for right now : my heart broken la weyh.. where got peeling anymore.haizzz.
Q : Did the last person you held hands with you mean anything to you now? : u GUESS??
Q : Do you sleep with the TV on? : i don watch tv,tv watch me .
Q : What are you doing right now? : Blogging, MSN-ing,LJ-ing, and finishing FMM event.
Q : Have you ever crawled through a window? :i wont try this at my homey..never.
Q : Can you handle the truth?: It depends.
Q : Are you closer to your mother or father?: i close to my LJ ,my Mom where got time at home one la..adeyy
Q : Who was the last person you cried in front of? : sengal JIa.
Q : How many people can you say you've really loved? DBSK.HAHAHAHA.okey.
my family.my bestiesss'my friends that really close with me....
Q : Do you eat healthy? im sorry?? pls define the word health for me..haha.XDD
Q : Do you still have pictures of you & your ex? : omigosh. never.
Q : Have you ever cried because of something someone said to you? : yes. like shit. i sober one whole month. damn it.
Q : If you're having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to? : i'll blog it out, or find someone close to talk with them. or i punch anything closer to me or run one whole day OR watch StarMoON at night while listening to my mp3.
Q : Are you loud or quiet most of the time? : Follow my mood actually,usually im LOUD but i can turn QUIET when..i found the atmosphere rather ODD.
Q : Are you confident? Sometimes YES, sometimes NO.
THINGS YOU DID 10 YEARS AGO.
( 9 years old )
1. Studied in SRKJAP
2. babi one la, all forgetten.haha
3. i was insane. wait wait, i kick a boy right at his.hahahah...XDD
SNACKS I ENJOY.: i just eat wokey. don care much.
5 PLACES I HAVE LIVED IN
1. somewhere in selangor area,[damn bb to recalled it]
2. water honey.hahaha. direct translation from AIR MADU.
3.is toilet count? i always sleep inside toilet when i have to go to school last time.haha
4. now im at earth, tomorrow im goin back to sky high academy.XD
5. pahang.my CAMP NS memories^^
5 JOBS I HAVE HAD
1. Promoter at Sg wang.
2. Office work in gazallion of place
3. fully HOUSE MAID.haizzz
4. erm..being student oso count right right???
5. ...erk...bein a good motivator.hahahah.XDDD blif me. i done this before.hahaha
im not feeling like wanting to tag anyone, so just feel free to do it by yourself eh.^^
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
kevin words
get back up on ur feet. dun dwell over the past but embrace the future.
ps:kevin told me this.
thanxxx dear^^
word of wisdom
btw. i miss the year end party with fc oso.
haizz
soo many things i miss out. damn it.
curse me inside,!!
haha
ciaozsz
ps:kevin told me this.
thanxxx dear^^
word of wisdom
btw. i miss the year end party with fc oso.
haizz
soo many things i miss out. damn it.
curse me inside,!!
haha
ciaozsz
doink
i post double..haha.
too many things i wanted to say;
i miss the new year eve celebration that day with sab and jan.
ishhh..
dAMN REGRET.
we should partying that night right. i saw all those pic u guys, ishhhh
i should be there too, damn nice!!!
and i miss the chance to meet my sabbie...awwwwwwwwww
imissyousomuchh.
you already back to singapore,dont know when again we can meet right.
unless, me and jan plan a trip to singapore.ahaxxx..
right right.
okeyh.and sorry i didnt tell both of you what did happen. erm.
really am.
i love jan and sab. serious. i do. sorry my lovesss.<33
And and, guess what...
i miss out alot in LJ world, too many things is happening.
VIP attack Cassie?
OMIGOSH.
really?
ouch.hurt my pride. LOL
idontknow.
like too many of them.
gah~~ ain ain. where the hell did you go, you miss out a lot of things.
and i ruined my relationship with all my close friends..
especially jan.sab...suki suki wai wai....
haizzz
traumatic
i dont wish for the same thing,never again.
i prefer i forget everything like....i dont know a sudden amnesia maybe.
really wish.
i dont want to pretend but i can act thou?
its the same thing right.
am i too into myself,?
someone told me this,
no dear. i am not.
usually i am not.
i am narcassist. i know that. but i am no selfish.
or self-centered.
try to know me,without showing me you are checking on me.
i bet you'll know more about me.
or perhaps, if i catch you that way, i will show what YOU want to see rather than What i REALLY AM.
i done this million of times. always.
You'll never know who i really am, dont dig your own grave.
xoxo
ain
too many things i wanted to say;
i miss the new year eve celebration that day with sab and jan.
ishhh..
dAMN REGRET.
we should partying that night right. i saw all those pic u guys, ishhhh
i should be there too, damn nice!!!
and i miss the chance to meet my sabbie...awwwwwwwwww
imissyousomuchh.
you already back to singapore,dont know when again we can meet right.
unless, me and jan plan a trip to singapore.ahaxxx..
right right.
okeyh.and sorry i didnt tell both of you what did happen. erm.
really am.
i love jan and sab. serious. i do. sorry my lovesss.<33
And and, guess what...
i miss out alot in LJ world, too many things is happening.
VIP attack Cassie?
OMIGOSH.
really?
ouch.hurt my pride. LOL
idontknow.
like too many of them.
gah~~ ain ain. where the hell did you go, you miss out a lot of things.
and i ruined my relationship with all my close friends..
especially jan.sab...suki suki wai wai....
haizzz
traumatic
i dont wish for the same thing,never again.
i prefer i forget everything like....i dont know a sudden amnesia maybe.
really wish.
i dont want to pretend but i can act thou?
its the same thing right.
am i too into myself,?
someone told me this,
no dear. i am not.
usually i am not.
i am narcassist. i know that. but i am no selfish.
or self-centered.
try to know me,without showing me you are checking on me.
i bet you'll know more about me.
or perhaps, if i catch you that way, i will show what YOU want to see rather than What i REALLY AM.
i done this million of times. always.
You'll never know who i really am, dont dig your own grave.
xoxo
ain
leave it all behind.
lets face the truth.
walking ahead is better than turning back and still wondering around right.
i still remember reading every fanfic and little to i know,i did wish.
'my love story will be like this'
hahaha
ironically it did turn out in such a soap-opera drama crossed way to which i have no avail.
nah~ i wont reckon it as a love story,
haha
love story is more like
[HOW TO LOVE A ROBOT IN 10DAYS or OCEAN WE SWAM]
now,thats what i trully called as love story. eye tearing. heart breaking.
but in some good way, i found all my friends standing infront,behind and in every angle they can find to give me a support, not to mention all my friends in LJ world.
and as much as i want to admit, i found myself wrapped up in the world i least expected.
Yes, i am hurt...but..i cant let all the hopes down.
those who wanted to see me happy,my dearest...my family...
they rox my sox.to heaven.
i really2 wanted to mention few important names here,
jia, our world is like the bridge to terabithia.ahaha. damn connected.
wait wait my BM jumping to come out already,
ehhh..camne nih ehh...terlalu twisted la an...idup kite 2 sgt berkait, wokey.thanx.bye.
end of speech.
she totally proof to me that she stick to me no matter what happen, damn touchy.
and total perv. ishhhh....
girl i love ya. to the core. and when all the hopes is gone, remember im always here. twentyfourseven. my everlasting heaven.^^
and my biggest surprise was when people or my honey bunx like...chris..sunday..siew mun..
defne...shawn...kevin...who else? idontknow..
so much ppl stand behind me,hoping i will be fine, really moved.
and my loving teacher, miss gloria.
she really bring the tears in my face, she come visit me..and..says all the thing i just need to hear to get my spirit on. and thanx for the kimchi teacher.
sa rang hae.
promise i will study hard.hahaha pinky finger promise^^
and then there is someone like anne and nani.
wokey, this is weird. i meant its not like we know each other that well and we really not studying together.period.
and still, in some unique way, we become friends.
seriously sounded like we are damn closed kinda thingy thing.
idk, i just don't go well with....malays? i guess. ahax. am i even allowed to say this in public?LOL
lets turn back the time, i end up in sooo many malay geng. yet. i didnt stick loyal to one.
i always thought its not good to be racist.
since,i myself is a mixed of 2 race.
i play my part neutral where i remember,i jumping from one geng to another.
and just to take care of my own business,who cares what other people think bout you?
YOU DONT LIVE FOR THEM,right?
people still will talk,whether you are too good, or too bad. so,leave them
dont be bothered.
you got plenty of things to do than minding what other might think bout you.
in other word, FOR GOD SAKE,PLEASE DONT WASTE YOUR PRECIOUS FREAKIN TIME.
use it dumbo. you can learn in every go,find new friends. people come and go in life and there is very few that stick to you like glue.
PS:this is reminder to me as well.haha.
i waste time by thinking how other think bout me, gosh i better start thinkin how earth is moving.
or wait.
WHEN AGAIN THE END OF THE WORLD?
hahaahaha.
so here i go again talking bout how crap is life when you care too much bout the MIND.
anne. wokey,
May i tell you, this girl is special.
like seriously, because for me..its hard to find someone who knows and very much aware of the surrounding or shall i say.
I MAY LOOK LIKE I DONT GIVE A DAMN,BUT MIND YOU. I KNOW EVERYTHING. AND YES. I MEAN. EVERY LITTLE THING.
she give me spook like that.haha.
its like, i know that she know whatever that i know which imposibble to other to know and nobody know but me and her. yet we act like we dont know.. get me?hahaha.
yea, she's like that.
the more i know her,the more i think....i get attached to her. she remind me more of myself
that i should be strong no matter what happen.
and life were never meant to be easy, you just should act like it was and it solved everything.
thanx to her actually,i gained back my level of confident and of course back being the bitchy me.
she didnt realize this,haha. so yay, i should treat you someday gal since you help me a lot this time.
i hate GOOD PEOPLE, please dont hide behind your mask.
haha
nobody consider as GOOD, look at me, im a biatch. and i say next to no good girl in me.
Nani, she's ma gummy the bunny.
okey, i never was that close to malay's and these 3 people are the very few malay that close to me.
like seriously, i do have malays friend...but...usually i wont try to be close to them.
even if they try, i back off.
thats why anne jia and nani is like precious gummies in me.
haha. get me?
okey la. i am freakin boring and my work is piling up. i should finish it before my work end at 6.
and shooot, my lj friends. damnnn. i love each and every one of you guys.
i do i do.
marry me pleaseeee.hahahaha
i promise i will be back with new fanfic. hopefully *finger crossing*
i let too many ppl down...not bein me.
i dont know, i guess i done too many sin..
and...i feel really burden deep inside with all the things i done.
i know its not good, so. i wanna beg to those who i hurt their feeling.
and to those who i betray with my soul
i am on my knee, apologize to every single thing i did.
i know words wont change it, and for that. let me do something in return so that i can make it up to you guys.
i am sorry.
ain
walking ahead is better than turning back and still wondering around right.
i still remember reading every fanfic and little to i know,i did wish.
'my love story will be like this'
hahaha
ironically it did turn out in such a soap-opera drama crossed way to which i have no avail.
nah~ i wont reckon it as a love story,
haha
love story is more like
[HOW TO LOVE A ROBOT IN 10DAYS or OCEAN WE SWAM]
now,thats what i trully called as love story. eye tearing. heart breaking.
but in some good way, i found all my friends standing infront,behind and in every angle they can find to give me a support, not to mention all my friends in LJ world.
and as much as i want to admit, i found myself wrapped up in the world i least expected.
Yes, i am hurt...but..i cant let all the hopes down.
those who wanted to see me happy,my dearest...my family...
they rox my sox.to heaven.
i really2 wanted to mention few important names here,
jia, our world is like the bridge to terabithia.ahaha. damn connected.
wait wait my BM jumping to come out already,
ehhh..camne nih ehh...terlalu twisted la an...idup kite 2 sgt berkait, wokey.thanx.bye.
end of speech.
she totally proof to me that she stick to me no matter what happen, damn touchy.
and total perv. ishhhh....
girl i love ya. to the core. and when all the hopes is gone, remember im always here. twentyfourseven. my everlasting heaven.^^
and my biggest surprise was when people or my honey bunx like...chris..sunday..siew mun..
defne...shawn...kevin...who else? idontknow..
so much ppl stand behind me,hoping i will be fine, really moved.
and my loving teacher, miss gloria.
she really bring the tears in my face, she come visit me..and..says all the thing i just need to hear to get my spirit on. and thanx for the kimchi teacher.
sa rang hae.
promise i will study hard.hahaha pinky finger promise^^
and then there is someone like anne and nani.
wokey, this is weird. i meant its not like we know each other that well and we really not studying together.period.
and still, in some unique way, we become friends.
seriously sounded like we are damn closed kinda thingy thing.
idk, i just don't go well with....malays? i guess. ahax. am i even allowed to say this in public?LOL
lets turn back the time, i end up in sooo many malay geng. yet. i didnt stick loyal to one.
i always thought its not good to be racist.
since,i myself is a mixed of 2 race.
i play my part neutral where i remember,i jumping from one geng to another.
and just to take care of my own business,who cares what other people think bout you?
YOU DONT LIVE FOR THEM,right?
people still will talk,whether you are too good, or too bad. so,leave them
dont be bothered.
you got plenty of things to do than minding what other might think bout you.
in other word, FOR GOD SAKE,PLEASE DONT WASTE YOUR PRECIOUS FREAKIN TIME.
use it dumbo. you can learn in every go,find new friends. people come and go in life and there is very few that stick to you like glue.
PS:this is reminder to me as well.haha.
i waste time by thinking how other think bout me, gosh i better start thinkin how earth is moving.
or wait.
WHEN AGAIN THE END OF THE WORLD?
hahaahaha.
so here i go again talking bout how crap is life when you care too much bout the MIND.
anne. wokey,
May i tell you, this girl is special.
like seriously, because for me..its hard to find someone who knows and very much aware of the surrounding or shall i say.
I MAY LOOK LIKE I DONT GIVE A DAMN,BUT MIND YOU. I KNOW EVERYTHING. AND YES. I MEAN. EVERY LITTLE THING.
she give me spook like that.haha.
its like, i know that she know whatever that i know which imposibble to other to know and nobody know but me and her. yet we act like we dont know.. get me?hahaha.
yea, she's like that.
the more i know her,the more i think....i get attached to her. she remind me more of myself
that i should be strong no matter what happen.
and life were never meant to be easy, you just should act like it was and it solved everything.
thanx to her actually,i gained back my level of confident and of course back being the bitchy me.
she didnt realize this,haha. so yay, i should treat you someday gal since you help me a lot this time.
i hate GOOD PEOPLE, please dont hide behind your mask.
haha
nobody consider as GOOD, look at me, im a biatch. and i say next to no good girl in me.
Nani, she's ma gummy the bunny.
okey, i never was that close to malay's and these 3 people are the very few malay that close to me.
like seriously, i do have malays friend...but...usually i wont try to be close to them.
even if they try, i back off.
thats why anne jia and nani is like precious gummies in me.
haha. get me?
okey la. i am freakin boring and my work is piling up. i should finish it before my work end at 6.
and shooot, my lj friends. damnnn. i love each and every one of you guys.
i do i do.
marry me pleaseeee.hahahaha
i promise i will be back with new fanfic. hopefully *finger crossing*
i let too many ppl down...not bein me.
i dont know, i guess i done too many sin..
and...i feel really burden deep inside with all the things i done.
i know its not good, so. i wanna beg to those who i hurt their feeling.
and to those who i betray with my soul
i am on my knee, apologize to every single thing i did.
i know words wont change it, and for that. let me do something in return so that i can make it up to you guys.
i am sorry.
ain
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