leave it all behind.

lets face the truth.

walking ahead is better than turning back and still wondering around right.

i still remember reading every fanfic and little to i know,i did wish.

'my love story will be like this'

hahaha

ironically it did turn out in such a soap-opera drama crossed way to which i have no avail.

nah~ i wont reckon it as a love story,
haha

love story is more like

[HOW TO LOVE A ROBOT IN 10DAYS or OCEAN WE SWAM]
now,thats what i trully called as love story. eye tearing. heart breaking.

but in some good way, i found all my friends standing infront,behind and in every angle they can find to give me a support, not to mention all my friends in LJ world.

and as much as i want to admit, i found myself wrapped up in the world i least expected.

Yes, i am hurt...but..i cant let all the hopes down.
those who wanted to see me happy,my dearest...my family...

they rox my sox.to heaven.

i really2 wanted to mention few important names here,
jia, our world is like the bridge to terabithia.ahaha. damn connected.

wait wait my BM jumping to come out already,

ehhh..camne nih ehh...terlalu twisted la an...idup kite 2 sgt berkait, wokey.thanx.bye.

end of speech.

she totally proof to me that she stick to me no matter what happen, damn touchy.
and total perv. ishhhh....

girl i love ya. to the core. and when all the hopes is gone, remember im always here. twentyfourseven. my everlasting heaven.^^

and my biggest surprise was when people or my honey bunx like...chris..sunday..siew mun..
defne...shawn...kevin...who else? idontknow..

so much ppl stand behind me,hoping i will be fine, really moved.

and my loving teacher, miss gloria.

she really bring the tears in my face, she come visit me..and..says all the thing i just need to hear to get my spirit on. and thanx for the kimchi teacher.

sa rang hae.
promise i will study hard.hahaha pinky finger promise^^

and then there is someone like anne and nani.

wokey, this is weird. i meant its not like we know each other that well and we really not studying together.period.

and still, in some unique way, we become friends.

seriously sounded like we are damn closed kinda thingy thing.

idk, i just don't go well with....malays? i guess. ahax. am i even allowed to say this in public?LOL

lets turn back the time, i end up in sooo many malay geng. yet. i didnt stick loyal to one.
i always thought its not good to be racist.
since,i myself is a mixed of 2 race.

i play my part neutral where i remember,i jumping from one geng to another.
and just to take care of my own business,who cares what other people think bout you?
YOU DONT LIVE FOR THEM,right?

people still will talk,whether you are too good, or too bad. so,leave them
dont be bothered.
you got plenty of things to do than minding what other might think bout you.

in other word, FOR GOD SAKE,PLEASE DONT WASTE YOUR PRECIOUS FREAKIN TIME.
use it dumbo. you can learn in every go,find new friends. people come and go in life and there is very few that stick to you like glue.


PS:this is reminder to me as well.haha.
i waste time by thinking how other think bout me, gosh i better start thinkin how earth is moving.
or wait.

WHEN AGAIN THE END OF THE WORLD?
hahaahaha.

so here i go again talking bout how crap is life when you care too much bout the MIND.

anne. wokey,
May i tell you, this girl is special.

like seriously, because for me..its hard to find someone who knows and very much aware of the surrounding or shall i say.
I MAY LOOK LIKE I DONT GIVE A DAMN,BUT MIND YOU. I KNOW EVERYTHING. AND YES. I MEAN. EVERY LITTLE THING.

she give me spook like that.haha.
its like, i know that she know whatever that i know which imposibble to other to know and nobody know but me and her. yet we act like we dont know.. get me?hahaha.

yea, she's like that.

the more i know her,the more i think....i get attached to her. she remind me more of myself
that i should be strong no matter what happen.

and life were never meant to be easy, you just should act like it was and it solved everything.

thanx to her actually,i gained back my level of confident and of course back being the bitchy me.

she didnt realize this,haha. so yay, i should treat you someday gal since you help me a lot this time.

i hate GOOD PEOPLE, please dont hide behind your mask.

haha
nobody consider as GOOD, look at me, im a biatch. and i say next to no good girl in me.

Nani, she's ma gummy the bunny.

okey, i never was that close to malay's and these 3 people are the very few malay that close to me.

like seriously, i do have malays friend...but...usually i wont try to be close to them.
even if they try, i back off.
thats why anne jia and nani is like precious gummies in me.

haha. get me?
okey la. i am freakin boring and my work is piling up. i should finish it before my work end at 6.

and shooot, my lj friends. damnnn. i love each and every one of you guys.
i do i do.
marry me pleaseeee.hahahaha

i promise i will be back with new fanfic. hopefully *finger crossing*

i let too many ppl down...not bein me.

i dont know, i guess i done too many sin..

and...i feel really burden deep inside with all the things i done.

i know its not good, so. i wanna beg to those who i hurt their feeling.
and to those who i betray with my soul

i am on my knee, apologize to every single thing i did.
i know words wont change it, and for that. let me do something in return so that i can make it up to you guys.
i am sorry.

ain