bila rasa ku ini.....

maybe sometime, its better to ignore everything and pretend you are fine,

because

sesungguh nya, saya terlalu lemah untuk menerima tamparan hebat

may it from my own best friend or even the past people in my life.

yes, hati ini dah terlalu hancur.

"mengertilah, betapa hancurnya hati ini. cuba rasa apa yang saya rasa."

should i cry now?

running away from everything really won't solve anything.

and its crucial i remember everything dari awal sampai akhir.

DIA.

awak punca semua ini, awak penyebab utama saya dah kehilangan semua.

thou, i do realize saya memang do not want to blame myself for this.
instead, i blame you.

i lose everything

my home

my family

my trust

my hope

my dream

and now

i lose one most important thing in my life.

my dear life.

its hate to say this toward my own self.

do you know how difficult i have to go through just to pretend i OVER you?

i dont have any feeling for you, no more. or how people start to look at me like I'm a devil send from hell?

regret?

its that even a word?!



now. saya betul2 dah tak berdaya untuk meneruskan semua ini.

i swear.

please, whatever happen in past or happening now.

i pray.
please. go away.

i dont wish for another heart breakin news, its already have a huge hole in it. cant you see?

saya sangat2 tertekan.

my head feel like exploding.
where goes my spirit?

where goes everything that i hold on to?

question left like that.

i want to runaway, go far away. i don't want to stay in here.
please.

goodbye,