its official. im taking a loong trip to somewhere, seriously.
sometime when you dig into your own grave, the next thing that pop up was
RUN AWAY
but taking count as i am still a girl and 19 teen still not arrive at my door, so i plan on a loongest trip i could ever imagine.
let just say, life boring me as death and to which i want to ignore few important things in life. and i didnt mention any thing with TWO LEG, TWO HAND, BODY AND FACE okei?
i wanna so badly to scream my lungs out and go to a place where i can start over, as easy as it sound... i really dont know where to start and move on just feel like a great disaster- the same situation like my room kena langgar lorry.
anyway, i dont know how many of my friends still keep a track of me, but feel free to contact my handphone oke?
i might reply late but nevertheless i will try my hard to reply. haha
i meant, hey you cant blame me, cuz i always lost my hp. jeeez.hahaha
signing off.
ahaha
and btw, sab, and jan. i miss both of u so much.
and i miss kak syA.hahaha. i miss talking with u. i mean, chatting.XD
Showing posts with label life. Show all posts
Showing posts with label life. Show all posts
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
clumsy h;ain
if i can go beyond my thinking to the past ..travel through time
and walk pass by every memory in life,
i wanted to go back to my past. to the time where i wish i can make changes
and i wish i could have said every little things that i wanted to say;
and to my past self.
farah ain,
the name ...its only the name? was it?
the undying self that try so hard to make living and only to satisfy
every eye that watching so closely.
is that a life?
i knew from the moment i had my eye open and my mouth close,
my thinking were beyond any child at my age.
i knew, i was special.
if today is my past, i wanted to start back a new life.
my form one, i will do much better than staring out of space and
wishing why i dont belong to that group?
i would join every sport that i always wanted...and despite my leg injured
i still will be proudly running...win a medal or two.
i will make you proud.
instead, i make you sad....and sorry just wont come from this cruel heart mouth.
i will study hard, and master every subject. so when you come to my school
you will go back happily.
but, i make you cry. again and again.
i will go to school everyday, not worrying how people will accept me the way i am.
i never like who i really am.
i hate every fact that made me who i am.
i hate my life so badly that i wish everyday was my death ceremonal.
i was ill-fated. wanting so much to be in that certain group.
;why cant you look at me just the way you look at her?;
why am i so different from anyone else? im just same as you,
i have black hair...a heart..and a feeling attached to it.
we are in the same world, step in the same place and look at the same thing..
;why didnt you see me? i was right there...for you;
i will change this if i can...i will be proud to be who i am...
i will smile often and no one will see this face change to gloomy..every single day.
but why didnt i notice? the same group of people who destroy all the hopes rises in me.
when i enter my form 2.
i wish i can be a better person for you, but i was too fulled with myself.
i was indeed selfish...
but wishing is just a wishing. nothing change nothing going to replace it.
i will stand proud to be with you, to stand beside you. and to go through this
together with you.
But all i did was hurt you more, with my attitude i know you wish..i never was here.
i never was the best person right?
form 4 and 5, eventhough i stand aside and watch you silently..
little to i know, i wish...i can change it. but i did nothing to it.
i can only stare and let the time passby.
and how i will forget the fact i wasnt really a bright student.
i wasted my time on something i know it wont last. never.
form 5, if i can do better,i wanted to emerge myself into thousand of books
and just so you know, i will make you proud...
why i keep on breaking every promises?
and maybe if i can change any of it....i wont end up ...being a walking zombie.
and maybe if i wasnt that desperate to be in the same world as you, i wont end up
begging you not to go.
i just wanted to be in that world, the same world.
why you keep on leaving me speechless this way?
i put the fullstop here, i let my body stop and my mind rewind every thing.
to you, who i became so vulnerable.
to you, who i wanted so badly to undo every mistake.
to you, and only you...i wont be able to move on knowing
neither you nor me who was at fault. but it was the faith that bond me,
i should know better that i never belong to that group. and you, was another character from
my life drama.
ps: i wont be online for maybe long time from now, so for that i already post few entry. okei friends, dont miss me too much.hahaa
dsfjfreiotgurgutrigythdyudtyr sorry, thats me bein the dramatic person.XD
and walk pass by every memory in life,
i wanted to go back to my past. to the time where i wish i can make changes
and i wish i could have said every little things that i wanted to say;
and to my past self.
farah ain,
the name ...its only the name? was it?
the undying self that try so hard to make living and only to satisfy
every eye that watching so closely.
is that a life?
i knew from the moment i had my eye open and my mouth close,
my thinking were beyond any child at my age.
i knew, i was special.
if today is my past, i wanted to start back a new life.
my form one, i will do much better than staring out of space and
wishing why i dont belong to that group?
i would join every sport that i always wanted...and despite my leg injured
i still will be proudly running...win a medal or two.
i will make you proud.
instead, i make you sad....and sorry just wont come from this cruel heart mouth.
i will study hard, and master every subject. so when you come to my school
you will go back happily.
but, i make you cry. again and again.
i will go to school everyday, not worrying how people will accept me the way i am.
i never like who i really am.
i hate every fact that made me who i am.
i hate my life so badly that i wish everyday was my death ceremonal.
i was ill-fated. wanting so much to be in that certain group.
;why cant you look at me just the way you look at her?;
why am i so different from anyone else? im just same as you,
i have black hair...a heart..and a feeling attached to it.
we are in the same world, step in the same place and look at the same thing..
;why didnt you see me? i was right there...for you;
i will change this if i can...i will be proud to be who i am...
i will smile often and no one will see this face change to gloomy..every single day.
but why didnt i notice? the same group of people who destroy all the hopes rises in me.
when i enter my form 2.
i wish i can be a better person for you, but i was too fulled with myself.
i was indeed selfish...
but wishing is just a wishing. nothing change nothing going to replace it.
i will stand proud to be with you, to stand beside you. and to go through this
together with you.
But all i did was hurt you more, with my attitude i know you wish..i never was here.
i never was the best person right?
form 4 and 5, eventhough i stand aside and watch you silently..
little to i know, i wish...i can change it. but i did nothing to it.
i can only stare and let the time passby.
and how i will forget the fact i wasnt really a bright student.
i wasted my time on something i know it wont last. never.
form 5, if i can do better,i wanted to emerge myself into thousand of books
and just so you know, i will make you proud...
why i keep on breaking every promises?
and maybe if i can change any of it....i wont end up ...being a walking zombie.
and maybe if i wasnt that desperate to be in the same world as you, i wont end up
begging you not to go.
i just wanted to be in that world, the same world.
why you keep on leaving me speechless this way?
i put the fullstop here, i let my body stop and my mind rewind every thing.
to you, who i became so vulnerable.
to you, who i wanted so badly to undo every mistake.
to you, and only you...i wont be able to move on knowing
neither you nor me who was at fault. but it was the faith that bond me,
i should know better that i never belong to that group. and you, was another character from
my life drama.
ps: i wont be online for maybe long time from now, so for that i already post few entry. okei friends, dont miss me too much.hahaa
dsfjfreiotgurgutrigythdyudtyr sorry, thats me bein the dramatic person.XD
i'm goin for another hiATUS.haha
saya budak lepasan spm 2007.
apa yang ada kat saya cuma saat2 kat sekolah je dulu.
bahagia?
;ain sungguh bangga dengan diri sendiri time tuh;
tapi, sape tuh ain?
name tuh da xde meaning dalam hidup saya.
ain. ain. ain.
cuma sorang budak. cop. remaja? yang tercari2 makna hidup and akhir nya
jatuh cam tuh je.
jatuh disini bukan bermaksud
;pada pagi yang indah ain jalan2 kat taman Kampung baru air panas, tiba2 kaki ain tersepah batu dan jatuh lalu ain pun sumpah seranah menyalahkan batu itu.
cis, batu tuh xbersalah pun. yang xde mata itu ain bukan batu.;
tetapi bermaksud
;ain tersungkur dikala mencari makna hidup, ingat kan dunia itu indah..tapi
tipu muslihat...dusta munafik merata2. ain pun jatuh dengan teruk sehingga
dah xde makna nak hidup da pun.;
:oke. saya saje nak nampak bajet cool ngan gune ayat gempak.XD;
ain. ntah nape name ain nih da jadi sangat janggal untuk disebut. and ada ketika saya harap saya boleh tukar je name saya.
given option,
syukur mama saya bagi nama punya panjang, at least boleh main tukar2 nama kan.
thankies ma.
tapi, saya sumpah nak muntah kalau la ada orang panggel saya fara
kwn2...jom practice ea..
oke
1
2
3
say Fara ea..
UWEEKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!
;penampar hikmah pun hinggap di pipi;
tapi TETAPI
;anda dibenarkan panggel saya FARA atas DASAR PROFESSIONAL AND KERJA SAHAJA kthxbye;
ain?
saya benci nama nih sekarang.
seolah2 name nih da xwujud bagi saya.
but bagi saya, ain memang dah lama mati.
pada 24 disember 2008. perempuan bernama ain dah pun mati.
;ada rasa nak bagi penampar x kat saya? suka2 saya je nak merendah2kan perkataan mati nih;
who say im not afraid of death?
i am, i was and always will.
saya xpun merendah2kan mati, infact either way people will die. its just bout the timing kan?
may it be fast or may it be late.
5 second from now, god knows when my life akan kena tarik?
;tibe2 hati kecik ain pun berbicara, cisss, xcukup amal nihhh.!!!;
nih je kot sebab utama xleh mati dulu, cuz amal xcukup.
saya pun takot ngan statement kat atas. amal saya sentiasa xcukup.
bein a human, mistake and more mistake become part of life right, and bein a women and a girl to be exact. my desire is almost on everything.
from there, my mistake piled up.
the fact was, HUMAN LIVE TO FULFIL THEIR FCUKING DESIRE. TO PLEASE THEIR INNER PLEASURE.
satisfaction is everywhere in them. and they say next to NO satisfaction.
but i am sure im not alone on this.
to those who used to know me with that name, NOTED. ain already death.
her death body can be found at the opposite side of klcc convention centre and infront of the park at klcc.period. time body discovered was at 9.01pm on the date 24th of disember 2008.
;dont ask why. i used to love that place for ages. until memories kept me away from it.;
death ceremony held in her resident at wangsa maju area section 1 konar konar at sri rampai masuk sri utama international school and terus masuk kanan and kanan.
may ain R.I.P
amin.M
apa yang ada kat saya cuma saat2 kat sekolah je dulu.
bahagia?
;ain sungguh bangga dengan diri sendiri time tuh;
tapi, sape tuh ain?
name tuh da xde meaning dalam hidup saya.
ain. ain. ain.
cuma sorang budak. cop. remaja? yang tercari2 makna hidup and akhir nya
jatuh cam tuh je.
jatuh disini bukan bermaksud
;pada pagi yang indah ain jalan2 kat taman Kampung baru air panas, tiba2 kaki ain tersepah batu dan jatuh lalu ain pun sumpah seranah menyalahkan batu itu.
cis, batu tuh xbersalah pun. yang xde mata itu ain bukan batu.;
tetapi bermaksud
;ain tersungkur dikala mencari makna hidup, ingat kan dunia itu indah..tapi
tipu muslihat...dusta munafik merata2. ain pun jatuh dengan teruk sehingga
dah xde makna nak hidup da pun.;
:oke. saya saje nak nampak bajet cool ngan gune ayat gempak.XD;
ain. ntah nape name ain nih da jadi sangat janggal untuk disebut. and ada ketika saya harap saya boleh tukar je name saya.
given option,
syukur mama saya bagi nama punya panjang, at least boleh main tukar2 nama kan.
thankies ma.
tapi, saya sumpah nak muntah kalau la ada orang panggel saya fara
kwn2...jom practice ea..
oke
1
2
3
say Fara ea..
UWEEKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!
;penampar hikmah pun hinggap di pipi;
tapi TETAPI
;anda dibenarkan panggel saya FARA atas DASAR PROFESSIONAL AND KERJA SAHAJA kthxbye;
ain?
saya benci nama nih sekarang.
seolah2 name nih da xwujud bagi saya.
but bagi saya, ain memang dah lama mati.
pada 24 disember 2008. perempuan bernama ain dah pun mati.
;ada rasa nak bagi penampar x kat saya? suka2 saya je nak merendah2kan perkataan mati nih;
who say im not afraid of death?
i am, i was and always will.
saya xpun merendah2kan mati, infact either way people will die. its just bout the timing kan?
may it be fast or may it be late.
5 second from now, god knows when my life akan kena tarik?
;tibe2 hati kecik ain pun berbicara, cisss, xcukup amal nihhh.!!!;
nih je kot sebab utama xleh mati dulu, cuz amal xcukup.
saya pun takot ngan statement kat atas. amal saya sentiasa xcukup.
bein a human, mistake and more mistake become part of life right, and bein a women and a girl to be exact. my desire is almost on everything.
from there, my mistake piled up.
the fact was, HUMAN LIVE TO FULFIL THEIR FCUKING DESIRE. TO PLEASE THEIR INNER PLEASURE.
satisfaction is everywhere in them. and they say next to NO satisfaction.
but i am sure im not alone on this.
to those who used to know me with that name, NOTED. ain already death.
her death body can be found at the opposite side of klcc convention centre and infront of the park at klcc.period. time body discovered was at 9.01pm on the date 24th of disember 2008.
;dont ask why. i used to love that place for ages. until memories kept me away from it.;
death ceremony held in her resident at wangsa maju area section 1 konar konar at sri rampai masuk sri utama international school and terus masuk kanan and kanan.
may ain R.I.P
amin.M
Friday, March 6, 2009
im walkin away,
never had any intention to be angst last night, but i am really exhausted with whatever happening to me.
it have nothing to do with me, yes ain. got nothing. so continue being the V.I.P you always were. still in counting.
find opportunity and just get out from all of this. you can do this, you done this before, right?
how funny this was, my bff seriously take a same stepping stone with me.
i cant hate her, and i wont hide from her.
but it makes me wonder why, why and why.
why we lead a same life, that totally interconnected with each other.
there is something i don't have courage to tell her, but i dont think i will be telling her in any time sooner.
i dont give any shit on anything, leading my life is the best thing i can do.
a plan prepared and then walking and walking. but i do afraid of something.
my hopes. i have a greater weakness toward my own self conscious and my own self.
my often mood swings and oh-so-grumpy should kill me alive,no?
being only a human, stuck in my own self and dwelling on my past doesnt make enough sense to me now. i really dont have any idea on whatever happening.
sorry that i blame you, its all my fault. i should know everything better and stick to my self. angst end here.
yesterday we had a talk late night, and i really dedicated that song to you, try to understand the lyric.
it have nothing to do with me, yes ain. got nothing. so continue being the V.I.P you always were. still in counting.
find opportunity and just get out from all of this. you can do this, you done this before, right?
how funny this was, my bff seriously take a same stepping stone with me.
i cant hate her, and i wont hide from her.
but it makes me wonder why, why and why.
why we lead a same life, that totally interconnected with each other.
there is something i don't have courage to tell her, but i dont think i will be telling her in any time sooner.
i dont give any shit on anything, leading my life is the best thing i can do.
a plan prepared and then walking and walking. but i do afraid of something.
my hopes. i have a greater weakness toward my own self conscious and my own self.
my often mood swings and oh-so-grumpy should kill me alive,no?
being only a human, stuck in my own self and dwelling on my past doesnt make enough sense to me now. i really dont have any idea on whatever happening.
sorry that i blame you, its all my fault. i should know everything better and stick to my self. angst end here.
yesterday we had a talk late night, and i really dedicated that song to you, try to understand the lyric.
bila rasa ku ini.....
maybe sometime, its better to ignore everything and pretend you are fine,
because
sesungguh nya, saya terlalu lemah untuk menerima tamparan hebat
may it from my own best friend or even the past people in my life.
yes, hati ini dah terlalu hancur.
"mengertilah, betapa hancurnya hati ini. cuba rasa apa yang saya rasa."
should i cry now?
running away from everything really won't solve anything.
and its crucial i remember everything dari awal sampai akhir.
DIA.
awak punca semua ini, awak penyebab utama saya dah kehilangan semua.
thou, i do realize saya memang do not want to blame myself for this.
instead, i blame you.
i lose everything
my home
my family
my trust
my hope
my dream
and now
i lose one most important thing in my life.
my dear life.
its hate to say this toward my own self.
do you know how difficult i have to go through just to pretend i OVER you?
i dont have any feeling for you, no more. or how people start to look at me like I'm a devil send from hell?
regret?
its that even a word?!
now. saya betul2 dah tak berdaya untuk meneruskan semua ini.
i swear.
please, whatever happen in past or happening now.
i pray.
please. go away.
i dont wish for another heart breakin news, its already have a huge hole in it. cant you see?
saya sangat2 tertekan.
my head feel like exploding.
where goes my spirit?
where goes everything that i hold on to?
question left like that.
i want to runaway, go far away. i don't want to stay in here.
please.
goodbye,
because
sesungguh nya, saya terlalu lemah untuk menerima tamparan hebat
may it from my own best friend or even the past people in my life.
yes, hati ini dah terlalu hancur.
"mengertilah, betapa hancurnya hati ini. cuba rasa apa yang saya rasa."
should i cry now?
running away from everything really won't solve anything.
and its crucial i remember everything dari awal sampai akhir.
DIA.
awak punca semua ini, awak penyebab utama saya dah kehilangan semua.
thou, i do realize saya memang do not want to blame myself for this.
instead, i blame you.
i lose everything
my home
my family
my trust
my hope
my dream
and now
i lose one most important thing in my life.
my dear life.
its hate to say this toward my own self.
do you know how difficult i have to go through just to pretend i OVER you?
i dont have any feeling for you, no more. or how people start to look at me like I'm a devil send from hell?
regret?
its that even a word?!
now. saya betul2 dah tak berdaya untuk meneruskan semua ini.
i swear.
please, whatever happen in past or happening now.
i pray.
please. go away.
i dont wish for another heart breakin news, its already have a huge hole in it. cant you see?
saya sangat2 tertekan.
my head feel like exploding.
where goes my spirit?
where goes everything that i hold on to?
question left like that.
i want to runaway, go far away. i don't want to stay in here.
please.
goodbye,
Monday, March 2, 2009
ain depress AGAIN?
i'm haven't officially back.*noted*
goodbye february and welcome march. i've 100 upcoming birthday list waiting to make a hole in my pocket.
;shut up ain;
did i tell you that i'm havin a depression? *again, and again*
well only this time its a bit different BECAUSE i am so into CLEANING MY WHOLE HOUSE.
sumpah gila.
dari kain buruk hingga ke tempat letak pinggan, semua nya saya da pun cuci.
its like an obsession, and i can slept at 1-2 am everyday after cleaning the whole house and then i wake up early to clean it again, and kalau boleh saya memang nak kemas rumah jiran2 saya tuh sekali.
gile sepah. pagi tadi saya sengaja buat2 macam nak greet diorang pada pagi yang indah, fuuhhh
macam nak je masuk and kemas semua.
begitu la sikap ain yang tengah dalam depression.kthanxbye.
tapi, walaupun saya tengah dalam depression selepas mengambil hiatus yang agak panjang( ceh, padahal cuti seminggu je kot.)
saya tetap kembali untuk post more entry in this blog. unknown.LOL
rindu tak kat saya kawan2 semua??
;seriously, i can shut up now.;
saya terpikir pasal this thing early last night.
my first ever trip to pahang.
*flashbackkk*
ain: waaa.kekawan...aku dapat PLKN kat ......*dalam hati, ingat kan perkataan yang kurang sopan..rupa2 nye nama tempat...*
Jia:Mana?
Ain:..tuh...tuh..yang mula dari G tuh...end with NG...*ntah pape r ain mencarut*
jia:......*pandangan manja yang sgt bahaya*
ain:sigh*give up* kat GAMBANG,
jia:huh?
ain:ntah la. aku tau kat gambang...area pahang.
jia:O.o
*end of flashback*
huh.something like this la basic conversation ain and jia.
Saya pun melangkah keluar dari pintu rumah sambil memberi pandangan terakhir kat tv, cd and sofa kesayangan .
*dengan hati yang berat*
*switch back to english please, BM sumpah failed!*
and i reach at bukit jalil, teringat kat abang handsome yang jaga bus PLKN tuh cakap kuat2
:ehh,....bagus r. awk punya beg lebih besar dari awk...;*evil laugh*
(cis.. hanya sebab dy abang handsome, saya pun tersenyum malu, konon cover r. cuz sumpah semua orang pandang saya time tuh. gile malu. cam nak merangkak masuk bawah bus tuh je.)
takpe, hari ini hari dy, esok lusa siapa tau kan? wahahahahhaha sumpah kau mati di tanggan ku selepas ini. ( evil master plan in mind*noted*)
apa perasaan saya selepas memijak bumi pahang?
i must say, i was so in culture shock.
al maklum la, orang pun berasal 100% dari Key Hell tuh. *saya tak rasa BANGGA pun ea*
cuma, saya nih terlalu biasa duduk kat KL je selama ini, thus i felt so outkast standing there..in kuantan.
seriously, at that point of time, i wish i can run back to KL.
konon terlalu bandar-ish.
i don't know why but somehow i want to go back to those places.
did i say, i dont even have a kampung? therefore i spend my lifetime here in KL?
i sound that pathetic.T____T
well, ain kalau la awak sedar kan. sekarang pun awak tinggal kat kampung kan?
kampung baru air panas. (diam la ain.)
itu nama tempat tinggal saya yang tidak begitu famous ea.
rumah tinggi tinggi mencakar langit and bumi.
living in pahang was great, i can watch star every night sambil menyanyi lagu
'oh my pretty pretty boy i love you.' or 'i never had a dream come true'
(kalau suara macam beyonce ....boleh r..nih..suara cam kucing xsempat nak beranak je.
diam la ain)
but anyway, im sure missing it all now. and of course, i wish i can travel more and meet newfriends people in every go.
there always be a reason why this world is sphere and not rectangle or square kan?
because, only when the world is sphere we can meet another person in another point.
get me?
ain sumpah tengah mencarut mengarut nih.
saya tengah banyak berangan untuk menjadi someone.
fuhhh
and im currently in love with 김현중. wait, i think my whole family in love with 김현중. damn it.
saya tiada point untuk post anything today but seriously im boring to death and i just need to space out by doing something that not so important right now. and teaching is F.U.Ndamental
saya dah pun sakit mental.thenkiu
sila save the earth please!!!! global warming. (sumpahseranah ain yang betul2 tiada kaitan dengan tajuk asal and topic yang sgt tiba2 dan random. ain sila terjun bangunan.)
okie this might catch your attention.
SAVE EARTH PLEASE, THIS IS THE ONLY PLANET WITH CHOCOLATE.
okie okie.
'ain signing off'
goodbye february and welcome march. i've 100 upcoming birthday list waiting to make a hole in my pocket.
;shut up ain;
did i tell you that i'm havin a depression? *again, and again*
well only this time its a bit different BECAUSE i am so into CLEANING MY WHOLE HOUSE.
sumpah gila.
dari kain buruk hingga ke tempat letak pinggan, semua nya saya da pun cuci.
its like an obsession, and i can slept at 1-2 am everyday after cleaning the whole house and then i wake up early to clean it again, and kalau boleh saya memang nak kemas rumah jiran2 saya tuh sekali.
gile sepah. pagi tadi saya sengaja buat2 macam nak greet diorang pada pagi yang indah, fuuhhh
macam nak je masuk and kemas semua.
begitu la sikap ain yang tengah dalam depression.kthanxbye.
tapi, walaupun saya tengah dalam depression selepas mengambil hiatus yang agak panjang( ceh, padahal cuti seminggu je kot.)
saya tetap kembali untuk post more entry in this blog. unknown.LOL
rindu tak kat saya kawan2 semua??
;seriously, i can shut up now.;
saya terpikir pasal this thing early last night.
my first ever trip to pahang.
*flashbackkk*
ain: waaa.kekawan...aku dapat PLKN kat ......*dalam hati, ingat kan perkataan yang kurang sopan..rupa2 nye nama tempat...*
Jia:Mana?
Ain:..tuh...tuh..yang mula dari G tuh...end with NG...*ntah pape r ain mencarut*
jia:......*pandangan manja yang sgt bahaya*
ain:sigh*give up* kat GAMBANG,
jia:huh?
ain:ntah la. aku tau kat gambang...area pahang.
jia:O.o
*end of flashback*
huh.something like this la basic conversation ain and jia.
Saya pun melangkah keluar dari pintu rumah sambil memberi pandangan terakhir kat tv, cd and sofa kesayangan .
*dengan hati yang berat*
*switch back to english please, BM sumpah failed!*
and i reach at bukit jalil, teringat kat abang handsome yang jaga bus PLKN tuh cakap kuat2
:ehh,....bagus r. awk punya beg lebih besar dari awk...;*evil laugh*
(cis.. hanya sebab dy abang handsome, saya pun tersenyum malu, konon cover r. cuz sumpah semua orang pandang saya time tuh. gile malu. cam nak merangkak masuk bawah bus tuh je.)
takpe, hari ini hari dy, esok lusa siapa tau kan? wahahahahhaha sumpah kau mati di tanggan ku selepas ini. ( evil master plan in mind*noted*)
apa perasaan saya selepas memijak bumi pahang?
i must say, i was so in culture shock.
al maklum la, orang pun berasal 100% dari Key Hell tuh. *saya tak rasa BANGGA pun ea*
cuma, saya nih terlalu biasa duduk kat KL je selama ini, thus i felt so outkast standing there..in kuantan.
seriously, at that point of time, i wish i can run back to KL.
konon terlalu bandar-ish.
i don't know why but somehow i want to go back to those places.
did i say, i dont even have a kampung? therefore i spend my lifetime here in KL?
i sound that pathetic.T____T
well, ain kalau la awak sedar kan. sekarang pun awak tinggal kat kampung kan?
kampung baru air panas. (diam la ain.)
itu nama tempat tinggal saya yang tidak begitu famous ea.
rumah tinggi tinggi mencakar langit and bumi.
living in pahang was great, i can watch star every night sambil menyanyi lagu
'oh my pretty pretty boy i love you.' or 'i never had a dream come true'
(kalau suara macam beyonce ....boleh r..nih..suara cam kucing xsempat nak beranak je.
diam la ain)
but anyway, im sure missing it all now. and of course, i wish i can travel more and meet new
there always be a reason why this world is sphere and not rectangle or square kan?
because, only when the world is sphere we can meet another person in another point.
get me?
ain sumpah tengah mencarut mengarut nih.
saya tengah banyak berangan untuk menjadi someone.
fuhhh
and im currently in love with 김현중. wait, i think my whole family in love with 김현중. damn it.
saya tiada point untuk post anything today but seriously im boring to death and i just need to space out by doing something that not so important right now. and teaching is F.U.Ndamental
saya dah pun sakit mental.thenkiu
sila save the earth please!!!! global warming. (sumpahseranah ain yang betul2 tiada kaitan dengan tajuk asal and topic yang sgt tiba2 dan random. ain sila terjun bangunan.)
okie this might catch your attention.
SAVE EARTH PLEASE, THIS IS THE ONLY PLANET WITH CHOCOLATE.
okie okie.
'ain signing off'
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